Confessions of a teenage mess up.

Introduction of me.

I lie everyday. I am over dramatic. I'm spoiled. I need to grow up. I obsessively harass people. I'm selfish. I don't have any respect. I am annoying. I always make everything about myself. I moan all of the time about everything. I'm an attention seeker. Oh and I'm bipolar which doesn't help anymore than the rest of my worthless body.

This is what I am confronted with on a day to day basis especially if I'm in some sort of argument. I am always in an argument with at least someone. Especially Sapphire (aka Saphy) we are always getting in arguments that are stupid. And to be honest with you it is mostly her fault. She always makes out that I have done something wrong.

Anyway back to the subject so I basically get bullied, even though if you saw me on a day to day basis you wouldn't understand how I get bullied, but these people know how to get to me, they know my weak points and they use them as much as they can to get at me. But I'm used to it now anyway. I just laugh and ignore. It doesn't always work though.

Some of the things they say hurt so bad I hate myself for it. I must have done something right? Am I a mess up? Am I supposed to die?

I suppose I should just ignore them or tell them to leave me alone or even tell someone but I'm afraid if I do that it will get worse. Like it always does.

It used to be your stupid but then it was I hate you. Then it became kill your self you worthless idiot.

Sometimes I wonder if these things are true. I mean they wouldn't have said them if they weren't, would they? I mean how could they come up with those things if they hadn't seen me act in those ways?

I never thought that I would have to deal with some of the things that I have but I suppose that's life. Oh well.

Sometimes I just want to go to sleep and never wake up. But that's normal right? Everyone thinks that sometimes but I suppose I do kinda think that a bit more regularly. I don't really know to be honest. As you will find out from my day to day journal (this thing that your reading now).