That Monday Night

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A slow jazz song and smoke from cigarettes welcomed me as I entered the bar and made my way to the counter. Monday ngayon kaya wala masyadong tao.

"Give me the hardest drink you can offer" Sabi ko right after I took a seat. Tinanguan naman ako nung bartender at umalis para ihanda yung hinihingi ko.

Kinuha ko ang phone ko galing sa bulsa ko na kanina pa ring ng ring dahil sa sunod sunod na tawag mula sa iba't-ibang tao. I stared at it blankly. I felt numb as of the moment, I was tired. I didn't know what I was supposed to feel anymore.

Napabalik ako sa realidad nung nilapag na sa harap ko nung bartender yung drink na inorder ko. He smiled and slightly bowed before leaving me to tend to another customer. Binalik ko naman ang attention ko sa phone ko na nagsimula nanaman magring at walang pag aalinlangang inoff yun.

I sighed before takng a sip from my drink. Napangiwi ako nung maramdaman ang paguhit ng alcohol mula sa aking bibig pababa sa lalamunan ko.

Ang pait.

On a similar note, ba't napakabitter ng mundo? O baka buhay ko lang yata ang mapait. Why do I feel like the odds doesn't want me to experience happiness? I know I'm a shitty person and I've done shitload of stupid things in my lifetime pero deserve ko pa ba 'to?

I felt that I was getting choked up kaya binalewala ko na ang mga bagy na naglalaro sa isipan ko at uminom na lang ulit. I downed my drink and asked the bartender for another one.

"What a way to start my week." I mumbled to myself habang pinaglalaruan ang baso ko.

Here I am in a bar on a Monday drowning myself in alcohol. My boyfriend broke up with me, my sister hate me, and my parents are about to disown me and the worst part is, School's gonna start again. Putangina lang.

I exhaled sharply sabay sandal sa counter.

But on a positive note, I still look gorgeous for someone who's going through an emotional state, on the verge of a breakdown. I looked down on my cropped fitted racerback top and my black leather miniskirt with a chain accent on the pockets which I paired with my favorite pair of ankle boots.

Yup. Still looking great.

What am I doing? Di dapat ako nagmumukmok. This is so unlike me, I should be out there having fun and meeting other people. I looked around ulit pero kaunti lang talaga ang tao at medyo madilim kaya di ko makita mga mukha ng nandito.

I sighed. I should've went to a club. I downed my drink once again at napangiwi ulit ng kaunti.

A few drinks more and I was already feeling tipsy. Oorder na sana ako ng isa pa ulit when I felt someone occupy the high stool beside me. Nilingon ko iyon and I got to admit, I like what I'm seeing. My Flirty mode is on and I blame it on the alcohol.

A hot male specie about 5 foot 10, who's around the same age as me, I hope, just occupied the seat next to me.

I slightly smiled, intrigued by the presence that was beside me. I tilted my head para mas lalong mapagmasdan ang mukha niya.

He has soft features. Honey colored almond eyes, straight yet perfectly shaped brows, soft pointed nose, rosy lips na may maliit na mole under his lower lip. He's definitely my type of guy.

And walang wala ang ex ko. Screw him. Pero ayoko mabadtrip kaya bahala na siya sa buhay niya.

Naramdaman yata mga titig ko kaya napalingon siya saakin. Our eyes met and I felt a weird sensation in my gut pero I kept my cool. I won't give him a confidence booster no' baka mamaya conceited pala 'to.