I'm on set waiting for the rest of the jokers to arrive. For once I'm early and feeling good. I hoped that Joe or even Murr would come before Brian did. It's not that I don't like him, it was the exact opposite. I am in love with Brian, in fact, I have been since high school. I always feel so comfortable with Brian. I hate being alone with him because I'm was scared that Brian would figure out my secret and reject me. I am terrified that I will lose Brian. I am not out to anyone because I don't know how people will react. After about 5 mins or so Joe waltzed in. He had a huge smile on his face, as usual. Murr came in not too long after. He looked more like a ferret today than normal. Brian came in 20 mins late, he must have been drinking last night. I hate when he drinks and after Joey's dad passed away we all got nervous about drinking, except Brian. Joey never starting drinking as a result of his dad's passing. Brian and I are the only Jokers that drink but Brian takes it to another level. He drinks almost every day of the week.
After hair, makeup, and the crew setting up, we start filming. We're doing a name-calling challenge for a focus group. It's a Joker vs Joker challenge, Brian and I, of course. We go through the challenge smoothly, we both got a thumbs up. That's a first, for once I'm not the biggest loser, Brian is. Joe thought of the idea, he wants Brian to use a pregnancy simulator while trying to teach mothers about labor and breathing. It was both hilarious and sad to watch, I felt bad that he was in so much pain but it was priceless.
After we were done shooting Joe wanted to go get something to eat. Shocker right? I know. We head down to a bar and grille in the city. We order our food, talk, eat and just wind down after a hectic day. At about midnight we all decide that we should go home and get some sleep for the day ahead. Brian comes up to me after Joe and Murr leave.
"Hey bud, um can I crash at your place tonight?" Brian said slurred.
"Yeah for sure," I said excitedly.
"I just don't want to drink anymore tonight and I thought if I had you with me I could fight the urge." He said sheepishly, almost ashamed. I felt bad, but I don't have the heart to tell him he needs help.
"That's fine, it's no big deal." We walked out of the bar and hailed a cab. Neither of us drove to set and we are in no shape to drive. Once we got to my house, we walked in and Brian went into my spare room and laid down on the bed. I went in after him, he looked so cute, I pulled the blanket up him so he doesn't get cold. His snoring lets me know he is fast asleep so I kiss his forehead and go to my room and fall asleep.
