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A/N: ventfic, keeping this up for the views!

TW: sensitive topics, manipulation/guilt tripping, suicidal thoughts.

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Yashiro Nene is weak, and she was well aware of it. Yet she didn't do anything to stop it.

The girl is an easy target, she might look extroverted but when it comes to her problems and worries she rather keep them inside to not worry anyone.

That is what makes her victim of toxic friendships and relationships. Treat her like shit, she won't tell a soul about it in fear of worrying her close ones.

She's weak not only phisically but also emtionally, the little girl breaks whenever she's reminded of the past. She paints herself in clouds in hopes to soothe the pain but only causes thoughts of her falling to her death appear.

It has always been raining for her since she convinced herself Yashiro Nene was at fault.

Because of it her friends had noticed. She had a noticeable gloomy aura surrounding her petite figure. But whenever asked she would shake her head negaively and force herself to spit out a bittersweet; "I'm okay!"

Amane Yugi is annoying for Yashiro.

He was always worrying about her, checking if she wanted to talk about what has been bothering her, even giving the girl candy to cheer her up. It was sweet, she liked it. But she thought it was wrong.

Nene was used to being used for someones pleasure. Often bringing her mood down when she opened up about things that meant a lot to her. It was like torture but she though it would pass.

The girl snapped back to reality, packing her school notebooks and materials to go home. She felt tired, she would probably flop on her bed and take a nap as soon as she entered home. Yashiro sighed and zipped closed her backpack.

She was about to walk out the door until the playful boy popped out of seemingly nowhere, scaring her a little. Muttering a small apology Amane asked "Do you mind if I walk home with you?"

"Not at all."

After the duo were on the sidewalk, he tried to make small talk.

"How has your exams been going?"
"Good, how about yours?"

Yugi scratched the back of his neck, "Eh, they could be better" He chuckled.

He stopped in his tracks, grabbing Nene's hand. Which made her turn around to face him.

"I've noticed you haven't been hanging out with our usual group- Which is fine of course! But you've been acting.. Off lately." She knew this question would've been brought up later.

"I am fine, you shouldn't worry about me you know? I mean... To be honest I have been kind of upset lately but it will get better."

She didn't believe the things she said at all, but deep inside there was a little hope that there was a gold pot at the end of the rainbow.

But the rainbow was incredibly long. And made her sad- You get the point.

"Yashiro, I worry because I care. Aoi-chan, Akane-kun and Kou-kun. Even Tsukasa has noticed your unusual behavior. Are you sure everything fi-"

"God fucking damn it Amane-kun, everything's fine."

Her eyes widened. She thought she had left that way of acting ages ago, but with just enough pressure it rose up again.

".. I'm sorry, my house isn't too far from here so I will walk alone to there. Have a good day!" She ran away from the boy.

He called out her name, but she didn't respond. Amane sighed and hoped she would one day smile again. A real smile.

The girl opened her door and climbed up the stairs to her room, knowing her parents were too busy over at a friend's than to pay attention to her. It was fine, she thought. But she felt alone.

"At least I have my hamster." She glanced over at the cage, her cute albino hamster made a squeak noise and played around its living space.

Yashiro remembered what had happened a few minutes ago. She couldn't believe she let her emotions take control of her. The sentence "I am a horrible person." was scribbled all over her body, she felt disgusting- a feeling a shower couldn't wash off.

She cuddled a pillow on her bed, breaking down in the comfort of the soft fabric against her face. Nene hated herself for being this weak, she hated every inch, every centimeter of herself.

A ding interrupted her train of self loathing, she rubbed her eyes and reached for her phone. She read the message.

Best friend >w<

Hey you didn't respond to my vent earlier. I guess I don't matter to you.
I thought we were friends, Yashiro.
Read at 3:58 pm

I'm so sorry, I have been busy these days with school.
Please don't think that, you matter a lot to me. I'm sorry.
! | 4:00 pm

! Error. This user has blocked you, message failed to send.

Her vision was clouded with tears again, it wasn't her first time getting blocked but it still hurt. Not knowing what that person was going to do to themselves and her knowing it's her fault.

It's her fault.

Yashiro Nene is weak. For crying, for believing everyone was good. For thinking people wouldn't try and take advantage of her.

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