Damaged

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Dave took me to Red lobsters and it was amazing. I had a great time. I haven't enjoyed myself that much since the beginning of my last relationship...that's another conversation for another day tho

We were now walking down the shore of the beach just talking

"So tell me the type of person you are" Dave said grabbing my hand intertwining our fingers

'I smiled at that. He really is a gentleman and he's showing me that he really do want this...I think I want this too'

"Umm So if we actually gon try this relationship I might as well tell you the truth" I said letting his hand go

He stopped walking and looked at me
"Aww shit you a man?!? Awwwww shit please don't tell me you a man...I'm gay that's it I'm wit a man. I'm bout to kill myself" he said dropping to his knees being dramatic

"As soon as I be about to take you serious you go and act like DC" I said laughing grabbing his hand " no I'm not a fucking man Dave...all this is real woman"

He got up "oh...well what is it that you got to tell me the truth about?" He asked as we started walking again

"Um I'm Damaged..." I start

"Whatchu mean by that...elaborate" he said

"You see how I'm always zoning out...that's because I'm thinking about the fucked up shit that happened in my life." I started again "my dad molested me...and me only. Nobody knew about the pain I was going through and till this day they still don't know". "He always want to play "a game" and I didn't want to play the type of games he wanted too." "It was almost a time where he really raped me..." I stopped "he never beat me or any of that he just would be a really nasty man". "I zone out on things he said to me or did to me and sometimes I zone out about the good times we had with my mom because that's all I ever wanted..." I explained

"I know this is a dumb questions but I'm thinking about something...What's all you ever wanted?" Dave asked as we continued to walk

"A happy family" I truthfully said "with no tricks behind it but a genuinely happy family"

"I can give that to you" he said

I giggled

"No like no funny shit I would give you the family you ask for" he said standing in front of me now holding both of my hands

"Why?" I ask on the verge of tears

"Why what?" He asked confused

"Why do you treat me like I'm something...like I'm worth anything when nobody wants something so damaged" I say letting some tears fall

"Ayo on some real shit don't ever say no dumb shit like that ever again" he said sternly

I stood there shocked

"You are something, you're worth more than what anybody says you are, and just because you're damaged doesn't mean nobody wants you...your sisters, DC, Lucas, your mom they treat you the right way which mean they want you in their lives." He states "I want you" He continues

"I was gon ask you tonight if  you wanted to try this relationship thing for real...but bare with me I'm not really good with them" he said scratching his neck

I chuckled "for you to be the biggest drug dealer you sure are romantic and sweet" I said smiling

"I got to be romantic to get a woman...I'm tired of having hoes." He starts "I want to settle down and grow wit somebody...I ain't tryna keep fucking and leaving bitches I want to marry a woman and we laugh at bitches who try to get at me or want me...I want a wife and kids" he finishes