When reality kicks in.

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~ ~ Clarie ~ ~

It's hard to believe that it has already been three weeks, it feels like it's been 30 years. Every night at 9 o'clock Sophia whines and wakes up Asher, as soon as he is awake she goes to sleep! She is gonna give her momma gray hair already... I have gotten three hours of sleep, which has made my emotions go out of wack, one minute I'm crying, then I'm screaming, and all of a sudden I'm laughing nonstop.

    Wheres Cole you ask? I haven't seen him... he is always in meetings. ALWAYS at meetings, if he wasn't my mate I would have a bunch of questions, I am very upset though, today is his birthday, and he wasn't here at all today. I baked a cake earlier today when the twins were distracted, I also put up balloons,  and posters that say 'happy birthday daddy!' And 'happy birthday Cole!'.

    

      I'm in the kitchen now with Asher on my hip, fixing him and Soph some bottles,  Asher had one of those teething toys in his mouth (no he's now getting teeth yet.) He is making little noises, that I awnsere to, Sophia dose it to but not as much, she only wants to talk at night. "Ok Ash, food is ready, how about we go check on sissy?"

   I carrie the two bottles, and Asher upstairs and into the nursury where Soph is cooing at her little toy that makes noises. "Well little man how about we start with you?" I place the burp rag under his chin, and put the bottle in his mouth... how downs the hole thing. "Wow buddy! Better slow down or you will get a tummy ache. " I place him on my shoulder and burp him. When he finaly let out a little burp I brought him over to his crib and watched him fall asleep. As soon as he fell asleep I picked up Sohia and did the same.

    This is the way all my days have gone, get up from not sleeping, eat what I can before the twins wake up, feed baby's, wonder where Cole is, play with babys, change dipers, nap time, then dinner, bath, bed. This morning though I decided to change things up, the twins had a bath this morning, we are such rebles. I walk into mine and Cole's room, and glance at the clock, 8:30pm, I guess I should see if I can wait up. I walk down stairs into the kitchen and grabed some sprite, and cookies. I walk into the living room and plant my tiered ass on the couch, and flip through Netflix.  I flip through all the movies, what do you wanna watch Cara? Nothing! I want Cole! I know so do I. I flip through all the movies again, I finaly decide to watch The Heat. As I start the movie I check my cell for the time, 8:50pm... He will be here soon Clarie. I hope so.

~~Cole ~ ~

"Ok so what are we gonna do?" My beta Derrick asks, I am now in a meeting with him, Drake, Zack, and Corry. For the past month I have been receiving threatening letters and voice messages.  We have know clue who it is or where they are. "I don't know. We really can't do anything but wait and protect our mates. Drake,  please inform the others to keep an eye out for anything suspicious. "He nodes his head and walks off. I look at my watch, 9:15 pm "ok guys it's late how about we call it a night?" They all agree and stand up, "Oh I forgot happy birthday to you alpha." Corry says as he leaves the room.... wait today is my birthday? Crap! We gotta get home. I lock up the pack house then, sped the hole way home.

        When I pulled into our driveway I saw that some lights were still on. I don't know if this is good or bad. When's the last time we talked to our mate? Shit.... I don't know. I grab my bag from the back set and make my way inside. I walk in to streamers, balloons,  and posters. I go to the kitchen first, there was a cake laying on the table, 'Happy birthday Cole!' This just keeps getting better. I hear noise then, coming from the living room. I set my bag down and walk into the room, my mate is passed out on the sofa with a movie playing. "Clarie,  hey sweetie come on, let's go to bed." I un cover her, and pull her up to her feet, she rubs her eyes, and yawns. "Cole? What time is it?"

"9:30... I'm sorry I tryed to get here sooner, but-" She stats to shake her head, "It's fine Cole. It was just a birthday, you will have others." She then turns away and walks up stairs... I don't know why but for some reason what she said bothered me. I follow her upstairs and into our room, "Well I would have been here if you would have told me you were planing something." It came out more harsh than I expected,  Clarie turns around, "Cole I don't want to fight, but how was I supposed to tell you when you are never home?"

"I'm home a bunch! And you could have called, or mind linked me!" Clarie folds her arms in front of her and raises a eyebrow, "Oh really? OK then tell me this, What can Sohia not sleep without?" She has us there. Shut is Zander!  "Her blanket? " Clarie shakes her head and walks into the bathroom with one of my t-shirts and boy short underware. I walk right in after her, "Dont walk away from me Clarie! "

"I'm getting dressed! Why are you g-getting so up-upset?" She started to cry at theend, oh shit! Not the tears... crap crap!
That's what you get you dick.

"Clarie... babe im sorry, what you did for me, the cake, the posters everything, it's all so awsome.  And I'm just upset that I wasn't here to celebrate with you and our kids." I try to pull her into my alarms but she shakes her head and backs away from me, which hurt a lot. "You need to go see your kids... they are now three weeks old. Almost a month old. They really are growing up fast." She them walks past me and into bed.  As walk out the room I stop and turn to Clarie, "Babe.... what can Sophia not sleep without?"

"Her toy wolf, and she has go have her mobile playing." I nod my head and walk out. Feeling like the worst father/mate in the world.

      I walk silently into my babys' room, the nightlight (that I didn't even know we had.) was throwing stars all over the room. I walk over to Asher's crib, he was laying on his back, his arms resting by his side's. He also had a pacifier in his mouth that said, 'Mommy's little rascal.' I also noticed that he has grown, a lot he also has more hair on his head. I reach my hand out and pet his soft hair. I lean over the crib bar and kiss my son on he head, "I love you buddy." I tiptoe over to Sophia's crib and try to hold back a laugh. She was laying on her tummy with her butt up in the air. She has a tight little grip on a stuffed wolf, I notice that she also has a pacifier in her mouth, but this one said, 'Daddy's little princess. ' I smile, and lean over the crib, like I did with Asher, "I love you my little princess. I'm sorry I haven't been here for you, your brother and your mommy." I kiss her on her head and walk out of the nursery.

     When I got back to my room, I striped down to my boxers, and crawled in to bed next to Clarie. I pull her into a cuddle with me, "I'm sorry." I wispered into her hair, "What for?" She whispers back, "For being a dick.... and a horrible mate/father." She sits up and looks me in the eye, "Don't say that... yes you were a dick, but you are the best mate, and a wonderful father." I role my eyes, "You are! I just wish you were home more." I smile and pull her onto my lap, so she was straddling me. " How about I stay home for the hole weekend? And when next week starts I will make shorter work days?" She grins and leans in and kisses me. "When's the last time we did this?" I ask as she kisses down my neck, "Dosnt matter.... I need you." I growle as the takes of the shirt she is wearing.... and I think we all know what happend after that.  ;)