I will admit it I have an anxiety problem and when it happens I have flash backs sometimes its a full out memory sometimes bits and pieces, Andy hasn't found out yet but he will soon if it keeps occuring like this
Flashback- 6 years ago
" SKAILAR MORTELA GET YOUR ASS IN HERE!" my mother yelled she must've been drinking again
" yah mom" I ran in the room " whats this!?!" She yelled " a bowl...." I replied confused "WHY IS IT ON THE FUCKING COUNTER AND NOT IN THE SINK" she raged " I don't know" I replied I felt a fist against my jaw and a hand grab my shoulder then I was thrown against the wall, "more bruises more questions more scars more questions" I thought to myself my mother picked up a knife and cut 4 lines on my wrists, she wanted people to think I was depressed.
Then it was over I stood there with a blank stare on my face "babe you ok?" Andy asked I regained focus and shivered " yah im fine" I replied "ok if your sure" he replied.
The only people that know about my anxiety are Haven, Jake, and Ashley I try and hide it but thats difficult on stage I had to talk to someone so I called Jake "Hello? " he said answering the phone "Jake it's getting worse what do I do" I said in a slight panic "ok ok uh just breathe Skai breathe" he replied I breathed in and out "better?" He asked " little bit" I replied " good I think we might need to get you to a doctor to check your anxiety problem cause it shouldn't be as bad as it is" he said worried " ok but who will take me?" I asked "well im busy tomorrow so I guess Ashley can" Jake replied " ok thanks Bye Jake" I said " no problem bye " he said hanging up.
-the next day-
" morning beauty" Andy said standing over me " morning " I said tiredly he kissed my forehead " so whats the plan today?" Andy asked " im going to Ashleys for a bit work on some chords possibly get some lunch" I replied " ok im going to CC's today" Andy replied I got up, got dressed then texted Ashley On way over see you soon. I reached his driveway and went inside " ready?" He asked "yep" I replied "lets go then" he said as we walked to the car. When we got into the doctors office Ashley was messing with everything, the spinny chair, gloves, sink , you name it he was messing with it, then the doctor walked in " Hello Miss. Mortela " he said "Hey Doc actually its Mrs. Biersack now" I replied " oh congrats" he said with a smile "ok so what seems to be the problem?" He asked "My anxiety is getting worse" I replied " thats weird cause it was almost gone last time you came in" he replied "what could've triggered it?" I asked "well anything , artifact that you remembered somehow, pregnancy, similar words, certain acts." he replied "woah back it up PREGNANCY" I said "yeah, could that be it?" He asked "no I don't think so I mean it could but I've been careful" I replied Ashley quietly snickered so only I heard him," well you could take a test" the doctor added " I don't think im pregnant though " I replied the doctor handed me a test "just in case you think about it".
