Stargaze with me

One-Shot Little boy

Matt wasn't feeling too good today, so he decided to take a day off from work. His husband kisses his forehead as he grabbed his hot tea and ran out the door and driving his truck to work.

Matt felt little, thats it thats all there is to say. He hadn't told his husband yet feeling scared because of what happened the last time he told someone.

(FLASHBACK)

"I'm so nervous to tell him this" Matt though to himself. He took a deep breath and walked into the living room curling up next to his boyfriend who has already had one too many beers. 

"Hey uh babe, can i talk to you?"

the man turns to him and rudely replies, "What do you want Matt?" 

"Uhm so i uh have something called a little space, i do it when im super stressed or just when i need to relax" he said softly.

The man looked at him in disgust, eyes burning a hole in to the smaller lanky man next to him. Matt felt his heart shatter. "Ew Matthew what the fuck is wrong with you?!" He slapped the boy with tears in his eyes. Hard. Matt ran, grabbing some of his things, as well as a paci and his blankie and leaving the apartment.

He sobbed in his car, laying his head on the steering wheel. After regaining his composure he put on some music and drove to his best friends house.

//Flashback over//

Matt looked around and made sure to see his husbands car leave before letting himself go. He waddled into his room, pulling out a small box with a blanket in it and a bunch of other "little" items and pull ups. 

He pulled out a pull-up and some baby blue overalls with a little bug print snap-crotch onesie the little boy began to get dressed, and ruffled his hair a little bit before going to grab the coloring book and crayons from under the bed. He giggled and ran to the living room turning on the T.V to Paw Patrol. He sang along to the theme song quietly as he colored and giggled to himself. 

He did this for hours until it was noon and Matt was getting sleepy. He yawned and sat on the couch, cuddling up to his blankie and sucking on his thumb gently.

//Time skip brought to you by Lil Matt//

When the little boy awoke he yawned with a little squeak, giggling to himself. He shifted a bit and sat up feeling wet between his crotch and soaking the front of his overalls. He immediately teared up. The boy began sobbing at his accident slipping further into his headspace ageing down to about 3 years old. 

He sobbed louder, so loud he didn't hear his husband, Micaiah, had walked into the house. An immediate feeling of worry at the sounds of his love crying made his stomach twist. He dropped all of his stuff to walk into the living room with a crying Matt with a wet crotch, coloring books and crayons scattered everywhere, along with various baby toys. Micaiah payed that no mind, because all he was worried about what his husband. The man ran up to the other scooping him up gently. 

"Hey Matt It's me baby, can you take a deep breath for me?" He said gently while rocking Matt gently. While these things were soothing for matt he got panicky because of what happened with John. He got tensed and his eyes went wide as he tried to run to the bathroom. Micaiah knew that if he let him go Matt would never tell him what happened and he'd probably hurt himself.

"Baby, its okay, i'm not gonna hurt you. Its me babe, Micaiah." He sat him on the couch kissing his hand gently. Matt whimpered but understood.

"Can you take a deep breath for me sweetie?" Micaiah says rubbing Matt's cheek bone comfortingly.

Matt takes in a big breath and holds it releasing slowly, just the way his husband taught him. He calms down and makes grabby hands at Micaiah, he's used to Matt being very cuddly after an attack. He picks him up and pulls the lanky man into his own lap rubbing circles into his back feeling the wetness in his husbands pants. 

"Did you have an accident baby?" he asked softly.

Matt nodded and sniffles before letting out a very broken "I-I'm s-sorry, I-it was an a-accident. I s-swear!" he cries out in reply in a very small voice.

"Baby it's alright, i promise. Do you want me to help you clean up sweetie?" Matt nods forgetting about the pull-up completely. Micaiah picks up his husband and hears a crinkle, he furrowed his eyebrows and Matt whimpered. When they got to the restroom Micaiah helped his husband take off the overalls and noticed the snap-crotch onesie. He saw the prince themed pull-ups and asked Matt. 

"Love, why are you wearing a pull-up?" He asked softly.

Matt sighed and "i-i'm a little and ttoday was on of thhose days, im sorry i understand if you dont wanna be with me anymore M..." the boy replied letting a tear fall from his cheek. 

"Hey, Matt look at me. I'm not going to leave you because you have a headspace, Its perfectly fine baby boy. As long as your not hurting your self or others its okay" He hugged his husband tightly.

"tthank you love." he sniffled as a blush danced across his cheeks. "W-will you be my papa?"

Micaiah's face lit up! "Of course my love, i'd love too! But lets get you all cleaned up okay?" Micaiah pulled down the pull-up and sat the boy on the counter while filling up the bathtub with warm water and adding some bubbles into the bath. He picks his boy up and sets him into it. "is that good baby?" Matt nodded and whined when his Papa got up to get the shampoo and conditioner. Micaiah returned shortly squirting on some shampoo on the little's hair massaging it in gently. He rinsed, added the conditioner and then rinsed again as his baby boy clapped the bubbles in his hands curiously. 

Micaiah chuckled and washed his body draining the tub and wrapping Matt in his favorite blue towel picking him up and out of the tub drying him off. 

"baby boy where are your diapers?" he asked his boy. 

"in da bwue box papa" Matt replied playing with his hair

Micaiah nodded and got him a thicker diaper taping it on him along with putting some baby powder on him. Micaiah dried him and got him in a onesie. 

"all done baby boy, you did so well for papa"

Matt blushed and hid his face into his daddy's chest.

"Your such a handsome little prince for papa huh kiddo?" he says tickling his baby's tummy.

Matt giggles "ddaddyyy sTopppp!!" he tries shooing his dada's hands away but he's giggling too much. 

"Okay, okay baby boy im done" He says catching his breath and chuckling scooping his boy up and kissing his forehead cuddling him.

"Lov yew dada" says a sleepy little boy.

"i love you too kiddo" he says before drifting off to sleep with the love of his life in his arms.