Her Secret (continuation )

Advice for Alex

-ooo so spill it who is it? - exclaimed Y/N

- Yeah what the heck Alex we leave you for one second and now you have a little crush- continued Raquel in a teasing manner.

- ONE SECOND ,i have'nt seen you guys in so long more like the heck are you guys doing?

- Well  its a long story but we will tell everyone later you know when we can get everyone together you know with Blair and Nova here too. - said Raquel.

- Oh right Nova and b,b,blair sure.

- Huh whats up with the stuttering though? - said Raquel

- NOTHING im just thinking that whatever you tell us  it better be a good reason for being so negligent with your friends  * hmp*

- ok haha enough pouting , it will be i promise right Y/N - said Raquel.

- yeah it will be

-  but first who is this person you like dont leave us hanging.

- ugh

- well you see thats the problem im not sure if i like them,  but we are good friends and i did'nt feel the same way as i do now you know as when i just saw them as a friend, and its so complicated because im not sure about my feelings and im sure they see me only as a friend but i dont know and i get nervous and awkward and..

- woah , calm down so this person is a friend to you then.

Alex nods

- i know them since middle school - Alex said as she buried her face in her hands- 

-and nothing ever happened you never dated or..- aske Y/N

- NO, its that bad im sure they think of me more as a ..

-Sister - she whispered dramatically. 

-agh it sucks, im gonna cry 

well i mean it could be worse haha you could be childhood friends am i right - said Raquel nudging y/n's shoulder.

- ...............

- what, i was just joking-i

- pfft- 

- y/n, Raquel! ,this is no laughing matter!  - interupted Alex.

- ok ok we'll stop- said Raquel

- wait  you said you were'nt sure about your feeling though, what exactly do you feel when you think about him.- questioned Y/N

Him? oh yeah right HIM duh  

* sigh*- Well, i,i get nervous around them it was'nt like this before but now it feels like my heart will go out of my chest like, you know that feeling when you are about to get on a rollercoaster and your tummy feels funny cause you know whats coming.

- raquel and Y/N nodded,.

- well i always get that feeling because i feel like i could say something wrong any time i  want that person to think of me as great , i want to be able to be with that person and whenever he leaves with someone else i get angry and sad , my heart sinks and i wish i could say please dont go with them stay with me...you know, and i would like to kiss him,.... 

-*again* muttered Alex to herself so none of the other two girls would hear it,

- oh jeez - blurted out y/n

-what,  is it bad?*- questioned Alex.

- you totally like him - said Raquel.

-evereything you said you like him its obvious you,. later you will feel the need to protect them i bet if you think about it you would hate to see that person cry... would'nt you? i bet you want that person to be with only you and love you.

- .... yeah, but i dont think they feel the same way about me...

- how are you so sure - interupted y/n - sometimes they might just be confused about there own feelings just the same as you have you tried throwing hints?

- not really , but they always leave with someone else and i...

- wait he already has a girlfriend !?

-Well No , you see he just likes to be around multiple people.... I guess you could say that.

- huh'?  what a prick , No Alex how can you like someone so ugh you might end up being just one of those  "multple people ", you could get hurt.

- I KNOW,  but what can i do i still like them and i want to be more special to them more than those "multple people ", 

- I dont know he could cheat on you if someone i was dating slept with someone else behind my back i would be angry - exclaimed y/n which made Raquel feel a little guilt as she  remembered what had happened with Mason.

- But he is not a bad person !!! 

- i know it i really do.... right now im more special to them but, only as a friend...

- but i ,ugh,  i want more than that.. but i know i might just mess up thing even more and i ugh why am i being so greedy,?  why is this so hard? i dont ....

- if i like them ,,i like them so much , it hurts.- she said with a crack in her voice as a tear dropped down her face.

- Alex....

- y/n and Raquel begin hugging her as she weeps they had never seen Alex like this last ti me was than when she broke her knee while on the trampoline in 8th grade , she is almost always happy , cheerfull and smiling.... it's difficult seeing her like this.

- You must really love him and i bet its hard thinkking about a confession because it could affect your friendship, we wont push for more ok.  Just let it out and when you want to clearly say who it is we will help'you ok.  for now we will support you whatever happens... - said Y/N in a caring matter.

- Hey maybe Blaire could help you i bet you already told her ill call her.. - Added Raquel.

- NO!!! 

- dont she is on a date right now just let it be.... - relplied Alex

- I.. 

ding dong , ding dong

before Raquel could say anything the door began ringing she had suspected something about  who this painful crush could be but maybe its for the best to leave it for now . She plans to  see it through later..

ding dong

-COMING - excalaimed Y/N as she went towards the door and Raquel helped Alex clean up.

Y/N opéned the door to see Ash and Mason.

- we are back- exclaimed Ashton as he was eating his chocolate icecream 

- can we come in-  said Mason holding a cookies n creme ice cream cone.

- oh yeah come in haha do you guys want some napkins youre covered all over with icecream. 

- oh yeah sure

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hmmm

-  whats wrong Blaire? asked Nova who was watching her friend lost in thought.

- its just ive been thinking is it just me or has Alex been really jumpy

- how so

- i feel like she has been avoiding or being more quite than usual

- Alex pfft that is quiete strange of her 

- maybe i should'nt have done that

- done what ?- asked Nova tilting her head a liitle to the side

- hmm nothing important i believe she could just be overreacting ill talk to her at school clear things up i guess

- im missing her honestly i miss her stupid jokes....