Make it or break it

What now?

Jan-di POV

I take a deep, shaky breath as I prepare to walk up ji-hoo's driveway, my suitcase dragging behind me.

Before I reach the door I see a bright light racing toward me, knowing what it was, I stopped and awaited the motor bike to stop beside me. Just as I suspected, it did.

"Jan-di...my bell rang. I see why now..."

The kind eyed boy said to me softly, switching off his motorcycle and taking his helmet off, pulling me into a hug as he sees the tears streaming from my eyes.

"Ji-...ji-hoo..."

I choke out painfully as I return the hug, crying into his shoulder. He rubs my back as he repeats "it's gonna be okay". Coming from anyone else, those words would've meant nothing to me.

We stood there in almost complete silence for a few minutes before we made our way up the driveway together, his arm around my shoulders. Even though I tried to convince him not to...he carried my bags all while comforting me.

As we entered his house he left my bags by the door and led me to the couch. We sat across from each other...there was silence, until our eyes met. The second his dark brown eyes met mine...I shattered. Tears began uncontrollably falling from my eyes as my lungs struggled to keep air in them, I let out a pain filled scream and let my walls fall all the way down.

I must've scared him because the next moment he was embracing me tightly, hushing me as he rubbed my arm.

"It...hurts, ji-hoo. But it had to be done..."

I manage to choke out painfully through sobs

"I know Jan-di...I know..."

I hadn't realized it at the time but he had also begun crying.

"Do you want to talk about it?"

I felt his grip loosen on me as I sat up to meet his eyes

I silently nodded, wiping my tears away as I sniffled.

"Jun-pyo...and I, we're... getting a divorce."

Ji-hoo's jaw dropped upon hearing my words.

"I filed this morning. It's why I'm here...I can't be in that house anymore."

He still sat there in silence. Not saying a word, just processing everything I was saying, slowly.

"I tried ji-hoo. I tried for so long...I thought he was my true love, my one and only. I just can't take it anymore...and neither can he. It was a mutual decision. We...got into a big fight, about our future...and the things he or I did to irritate the other. I realized that I...I didn't want that kind of life for myself. It was constant fighting these past 6 months. All we could do was tear each other apart. You know that though...and the more I thought about it, I deserve to be treated better. To be happier. It hurts so bad...but it has to happen."

He took a few moments to digest my words before nodding his head. Ji-hoo has listened to each rant about our fights for the last 6 months  but no matter how angry he got with jun-pyo he never said a word. Because I asked that of him...that he not hurt jun. He saw this coming...I did too to be honest, but I didn't want it to come.

"I'm proud of you for knowing your worth, but I'm sorry you hurt...I'm sorry..."

I nodded my head and smiled as best I could, wiping away my tears

"I...I feel like...someone has just ripped my heart out of my chest. The times he hurt me before...pale in comparison. This time...I'm in so much pain that...ji-hoo, I don't know how to feel it. That scares me."