I stare at the fall sky, liking how the colors of the sunset make the clouds look. I feel a pair of arms wrap around me from behind and I giggle a little, knowing the familiar feel. He puts his chin on my head, the fact that he's much taller than me being shown. He followed my stare taking in what I was.
"It' so beautiful, don't you think?" I ask quietly. He sighs deeply and I hear him laugh a little.
"Yes, but not as beautiful as you." He says gently kissing my cheek as they turn bright red and heat up. He shifts a little, making me wonder what's bothering him. I turn around in his arms, facing him now. I look at his face, his expression a little distant. I try to look into his beautiful brown eyes, but they avoid my gaze.
"What's wrong Gummy Bear?" I say, his nickname making him smile a little bit. He looks down at me, his eyes a little pained. I started to worry about what was bothering him. Maybe I had done something wrong, said something wrong, acted wrong and just didn't pick up on it. So many things started to rush through my mind, making me feel close to having a little panic attack. He must've seen my facial expression change and he kissed me passionately, a sign that I didn't do anything wrong; this time.
"My parents want us to move to California." He said, looking past me. I blink many times, trying to process the information that he just told me.
"Wha-What?" I ask dumbfounded.
"My dad got a job in California and.. We're going to move there in a couple weeks..." He trails off, looking back at me. My brain finally realized what was going on. My boyfriend, my love, was moving away from me. Will he leave me due to distance? Will he find someone better than me there? All sorts of questions raced through my mind. I felt him hold my hand, lifting it to his face so he could kiss it softly. I sighed and closed my eyes.
'Don't cry, don't cry, don't cry.' I kept saying over and over again in my head. 'He'll start to worry about us and I don't want him to worry.' A single tear fell from my eye. 'Emotions, you have betrayed me once again.' I felt him move closer to me, his soft lips touching my cheek where the tear slowly fell from.
"Please don't cry boo." He said as more tears threatened to fall. "I'm not going to leave you, not ever. I love you too much for that. I promise that I'll be with you forever and always." He pulled me into a tight embrace, my arms quickly wrapping around him as I cried silently.
"You promise promise?" I ask, my voice cracking. He rubbed my back trying to calm me down.
"I promise promise." He replies pulling away from me. He kisses me so fiercely, so passionately, that it feels like a goodbye forever kiss.
*Six months later*
I look at Seth in the hospital bed, his eyes closed, looking peaceful besides from all the breathing tubes he has. Two months ago, Seth had been hit by a car. Today's the first day that I've seen him since both the accident and his move to California. I sigh deeply to myself, feeling so empty inside, so lonely, since I hadn't even found out about him being in a coma until last week. I'm on the break of crying, and it's not only because my boyfriend is in a coma. No. It's because during the time that he's been in California, I've felt distant from him. Like, I wasn't a huge part of his life anymore though he said I was.
When he had stopped talking to me, it got worse. To be honest, I felt like leaving him. To be even more honest, I thought that he had left me. So, since I thought that, I had been ready to move on, until I heard about the accident. It was like a slap to the face when I heard. So many emotions poured out so quickly. Mostly guilt. Why you may ask? Because I thought that the one who had promised me a forever and always had left me and I had fallen for another person.
Now how does someone explain how that happened without feeling like a complete bitch?
