After me and Chandler had our date he drove me home like a gentleman and kissed my cheek. He was so perfect. I fell into my bed and just smiled for a few minutes. I could feel my face getting hot. I decided to text Maya. Maybe we can be friends, I thought. "Hey Maya. Im sorry Chandler cheated on you. He didnt know he was doing it. I hope things between us can be fine. Friends?". It wasnt but 5 minutes later, she texted me back. "You are so blind, scene queen. He sisnt cheat on me. I made him promise a long time ago not to tell anyone. Now I want you to know how he really is. Make him tell you the truth. Oh and sorry, I dont hang out with ugly, emo, loosers like you. TTFN". What could he have possibly done that was so bad? Did he get her pregnant? Did he beat her? Did he...rape her? At this point i was so confused about me, him, about everything. I immediately called him. "What did you do to her, Chandler? You lied to me! What did you do?". He didnt say a word. He just sighed and said we would talk tomorrow. I couldnt sleep that entire night. I just kept crying thinking about what he could have done to Maya. I grabbed my razor blade and started slitting my upper thighs, opening up the old cuts ive made in the past. I watched as the blood beaded up and trickled down my legs. This sight had always comforted me. I loved the pain. Its the only thing that made me feel alive. I took half of a handful of sleeping pills to help me sleep. After i cleaned my cuts, of course. I woke up to the sound of Freak On A Leash by Korn. I had set it as my alarm sound. I out on some Skull leggings, a black, low-cut shirt, straightened my jet black hair, lined my eyes with makeup, put black lipstick on with a bit of pink lipgloss, and drove to school. I told Accacia all thats been happening and she was upset. I seen Chandler walk to the doors of the school and i jogged after him. "Hey", I yelled. "Are you going to tell me what the hell is going on? Or are you just going to lie again?" I wasnt prepared to hear what I heard next.... "Oh my god"......
