Reversed Tragedy

Caught in the spider's web

The feeling of loneliness has became a daily thing for me. Everything about my life is so broken that I don't care what it has to offer. Every single day would be a havoc. Screaming music of pain that never subsides where ever I go. My eyes couldn't weep anymore. Too tired. I wish I could escape this reality. Even for a moment.

Even a minute is good..

Even...

I closed the door behind me to shut off the yelling outside my room. I was at the edge of crying when I saw my only friend, sitting on my bed. Of course.. I smiled and ran to it. My laptop has been my only friend. I fired it up like we haven't seen each other for a long time. I couldn't wait to check on my online friends and the games I played with them. I logged on to my social networking site with my fast experienced typing hands. I became dazed and consumed in a very short while. Forgetting everything around me.. Even my parents who's been recklessly fighting outside my door.
I started chatting to my friends whom I never seen personally. I smiled at their tales and jokes. Then they asked me.
"How about you? How is your day?"

I felt being dragged back to reality. Like every single strand of my soul has been pulled back into my nightmarish existence.

"Fine." The biggest lie in my life. I felt hot moisture in my eyes. Its very irritating. No one would understand me. Though I have friends at school, and relatives to be with, I have never felt complete nor happy about anything. Its just plain emptiness and longing.

I hated my life. Its hard to think that I have to work very hard for the things I need while others get what they want the easy way. I have envied most of the people around me. They get to have what they like, and be with the people they love...

Love? What is it? What does it look like?

Where do I find it?

I wiped my tears and fought back a smile while typing back to my friends. Making sure they don't suspect a thing.

Is this how my life will be forever? I gritted my teeth as my mom banged my door, screaming for me to leave the house. She is drunk again. This is why my father couldn't help himself but get pissed. I want to grow old fast and leave. I want to. I want..
The pain in my chest grew stronger. Im praying that I could handle everything on my own.

"Hey? Want to play?" A message came up on my screen. I looked at it with my red teary eyes. I quickly typed in a reply.
"Play what?" I asked, unamused. I was too distracted from the angry voices outside my room.
"I found a cute game!" She replied. "Its very RPG-ish survival game and very easy to navigate" she added.
I raised an eyebrow, slowly getting my interest. I picked my laptop and placed it on my desk then pulled my swivel chair and positioned myself for a battle of all nighter's with computer games.
Soon a got a link of the game, downloaded it and installed. Excitement was building up as Im sure I'll be meeting tons of new people like I always do in other games.

I booted the game. Mika would chat me from time to time to make sure we'd meet in the game. We started.
"What do we do here?" I asked, confused to find her and myself in a deserted area. Its almost like a normal scenery in a forest, sun was bright but I see no one else with us.
"We survive." She replied in the chatbox. Survive? Survive what? I wondered, we started walking random ways to explore the place.
"Are you sure this is an online game? I don't see anybody else around here" I typed in. I found out that we could gather raw supplies to craft things.
"This is like Minecraft, Mika." I laughed as I reminisce my time playing that game.
"Haha but this is a lot harder." She came back to me and her character seems distressed. "We need to make shelter and food fast." She added.
"Wait, when you said its like RPG.." I trailed off.
"Oh yes, we have different skills." She replied. "The character you got is a medic type. You get to heal others, while mine is a combat type." She added.
I was getting the gist of this game. Its getting me all giddy.
"Combat for what?" I asked. It was turning night in the game and a lot of mobs came to us. I panicked. I ran away from Mika as fast as I could.
"Nina! Don't leave me behind you *****." I laughed and continued running away.
"Stay away, Im a doctor, if I get killed you're gonna die." I was laughing so hard because the mobs are leaching her life little by little.
"WELL IM DYING NOW" She replied still trying to get away. I've decided I've had enough teasing her went up to help her. All I could do was slap the shit out of the mobs and heal Mika. She have killed most of the monsters, as expected from a warrior.
"That was close." I said.
"You almost killed me!" She replied but I know too well that she was having fun and she gets my joke. We continued playing hard after.

It was getting late. Mika said she wanted to rest and so she left the game. I didn't want to go back to reality just yet and stayed. I didn't notice that it was already quiet outside my room. They probably had enough and went to sleep. I sighed in exhaustion. I was again, alone, in the game. I would wander around our camp and forage. But when night falls, I'd hide back inside the base. I wont be able to do anything alone.

Its 3am. I was still up, playing my heart out. I could go a long way without sleep anyway. Then it happened. Mika had instructed me not to go alone in the woods, because of ambushes. If ever I died, all of my items would drop and it will take up to 5 minutes to respawn.

I was trapped. Monsters surrounded me, I panicked as I feared to drop all of the stuffs I have worked hard to gather. I could heal myself but if there was this much mobs, I wont be able to escape.
One after one monsters was beating me up. Worse part was I got poisoned. Great. Even my life in a game is so stupid.

A light struck down to the pile of mobs feasting on me. The monsters turned their attention to a mysterious player that appeared. I took this chance to run and hide somewhere. The mystery player was strong, it looks like he is on a different level from Mika and I. He killed every single monster easily and it was morning. I cringed from my seat. Wiping the beads of sweat from my forehead. That was frightful.
"Are you alright?" The mystery guy suddenly broke the silence in the chatbox.
My character is poisoned. Oh my god, how do I cure myself?!
He then came to me and did something. I have no idea what happened but the poison status was gone.
"Thank you for helping me." I said. He stood still and looked like he was typing a lot.
"No worries. Im glad I was able to save you. That could have turned out pretty bad."
I agree. Mika would kill me if she finds out I dropped almost all our food and important stuffs. The stress was too much to handle. Maybe Ill rest too. All that panic has set in and I feel very tired.
"Im logging off now. Can I add you?" I asked. "So we could play together sometimes.." I added. Okay that was awkward.
"Sure." He responded. I sighed in relief. I thought he will think Im creepy or something.
He gave me his email too. He said so I can give him a nudge whenever Im going online.

And thats how I became friends with the mystery guy.
And somehow, as I laid down on my bed, I felt like there was something to look forward to.. Have I always been this way?

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...................To be continued..................