That feeling was back again. The feeling of hating someone I shouldn't. I am not supposed to hate her because she is very close to me.
I couldn't help it but be disgusted everytime she touch me. I try my best not to roll my eyes at her. Because if I do, somthing bad will happen. It is not always but it is most of the time.
I am trying to control my self from yelling at her like "shut the fuck up...I just don't want to here your fucking voice. I don't want u to touch me any more"
With being angry at a very easy things I was trying so hard that my mind is going to blow. But I think I am going to go mad if she continue like this because........I am stuck with her in the house.
So I am trying to convince my self that I will get used to the behavior that I hate the most. I will. I have to. I need to.
