First look - SPROUSEHART

Part 3

LILI'S POV

Cole and I are sitting and talking about what we did before and his past 'out-of-acting' Jobs.

I was kinda fascinated by how smart he is. You wouldn't think a child star is as smart as him but he was homeschooled a lot onset.

"Please fasten your seat belts we'll be expecting some turbulence soon now." said our captain said.

I get anxious with seconds.

I'm not ready for this Cole had me distracted so good for the past three hours. But now I can't stop thinking about Amber. We were so close and- and I miss her so much. I let a quiet sob out hoping Cole wouldn't notice. No this wasn't supposed to happen I-I knew it was to fast.

I feel more and more tears roll down my cheek. And then the sound comes and Cole noticed it.

"cutiepie." I hear a soft voice say

"cutiepie" I hear again.

I keep looking away.

"Look at me." I don't I keep looking down not wanting to explain why I'm crying.

"Look at me" I hear him say in a little stronger voice than before, I suddenly feel a hand on my face.

I slowly look up at Cole and I can just see how glassy his eyes gets by looking at me. I keep crying and now I can't stop. I try to shut my eyes but it won't work.

"Hey, hey. what is it."

"I can't. I can't do this I knew it was to fast." I say with almost no voice.

He takes my hand and I try to take it back to myself. "Hey, just look me in the eyes. Hold my hand. Just focus on me and my touche, and nothing else. I won't let anything happen to you. I wanna protect you. I Promise."He says and takes my hand.

I look him deeply in the eyes. I never realized how deep blue, greenish eyes he has.

"You can't promise something like that you don't control what is going to happen,"

He doesn't even know what happened with Amber, so he can't protect me cause he doesn't know what to protect me from. I feel so stupid it has been 2 fucking years and it's still getting me anxious to be in a plane and especially if it has turbulence. And it doesn't really make anything better that I like as in like like him. It hurts too much after what happened with Lance. Even if he says he wants to protect me doesn't it make me feel better that he says that only worse. Lance said the exact same to me more than once and we all know how that went.

"No your right, but that doesn't mean I won't try to protect you " he agrees

Stop please don't make it harder than it already is.

"I-..I..-Cole you don't understand," I say trying to point it out more clearly than I did before. I wanna explain it all to him but I- I don't tell people that after so short time. I may think he is handsome and he may make me wanna let him do everything I never thought I would do with someone as handsome as him. But I can't tell him.

"then explain it." What it is he doesn't understand about it?

"Cole," I say quietly and slow.

I'm about to say more but he cut me off by the look in his eyes.

"please Lili, it doesn't have to be here just please tell me." I ignore him I'm property gonna talk to him cause he doesn't look like he is gonna give up anytime soon