Golden Girl: Nick Jonas x Reader

XVII

Our relationship went into a standstill when I told him that.

He seemed hurt that I said that and he didn't even try to reassure me that I don't have anything to fear. I wanted to say sorry because I hurt his feelings but I also didn't want to because I wanted to be honest.

Nick didn't know how to approach me now. I didn't know how to message him. We took each other's silence as a sign that we need time away from each other. Although we do exchange messages - they were barely special and were composed of small talks. How are you? How was your sleep?

It was crap.

But I didn't know how to fix it. I don't know how to speak to him when he reacted that way. And I don't really feel like making the first move.

Our silence lasted for days which then turned into weeks. Then suddenly, the premiere.

And then the start of his tour.

We stuck to the plan that we will arrive together. We were both in black Armani pieces which we picked out weeks before. We looked like a handsome couple but it was apparent how distant we now seemed to each other.

We shared a car and the awkwardness lingered.

"I'm sorry." I sighed. "About what I said."

"You were being honest. Don't worry about it." Nick shrugged it off and tried to sweep the topic under a rug. But I knew it will never go away like that. "You're scared of me, I get it."

"Yes but..."

"We're here." Our driver announced.

The door opened, Nick put on his happy smile as cameras flashed. He offered his hand to me and I took it as I stepped out of the car with him. We posed together and smiled for all the fans and cameras.

"Congratulations on your movie, Y/N and Nick! This is just a magical one! I mean, this was written for you and it brought you back together." We stopped to be interviewed and it stung. Yes. We were back together but I don't know how long.

"It is such a blessing. " Nick agreed and then he planted a kiss on my lips. It felt...different. But it did the trick to those who were watching. They were all buying our facade. "I am just so happy right now."

Before we stepped away from the interview, Joe and Sophie arrived. They were followed by Frankie. They smiled at us and we went over to hug them.

"Congratulations!" Sophie smiled brightly at me. "I am so excited to see this movie."

Joe was watching my face. Damn. He knows.

"We need to talk." Joe whispered before we got escorted to our seats in the theater.

I bit my lower lip and settled beside Nick and the director.

The theater dimmed and the movie started. I wasn't watching - I was focused on looking at us. The movie brought us back together but why is it that we just can't stay together?

"I am still so in love with you."

Nick's voice from the movie rang in my ears.

"But it just hurts that when you look at me, you can still see my mistakes."

I turned and looked at Nick who was quietly watching the movie. He turned his eyes to me and smiled a bit.

As much as his uncertain presence in my life scares me, I just love Nick. I love Nick.

But is that enough?

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"Alright, spill."

Joe put a drink in front of me. He and Sophie shared a look before she gave me a smile and left the table.

We were in the movie premiere's after party. Nick and Frankie left because Nick had a flight early tomorrow and Frankie was staying with his brother for the night.

I stayed, I didn't want to be left alone with my thoughts tonight.

"I don't know what to say to you, Joe." I took the glass and took a sip.

He frowned deeply, "Alright, here is the situation, Y/N, from our side of the room. Ever since you got back together, Nick has been the happiest and I have never seen him like that. Well, before the break up. You got him back to the young teenager he was before."

I listened to Joe and my heart hurt again.

"But these days, he's gone back to being a recluse, Y/N. What the hell happened? I thought you guys were happy?" He took a drink from his own glass and huffed.

I downed my drink. For what? Courage to be honest, I guess.

"He's going on tour."

Joe grumbled, "He announced it last year. You didn't know?"

I shook my head, "It scares me, Joe. It scares me." I could feel my tears forming, "I am scared that if he goes and leaves, he's going to set me aside again! I don't want to feel like such an option anymore!"

"You don't deserve that, Y/N. As my friend and my sister, I agree with you." He laid a hand on my shoulder, "Did you tell him?"

"I did. It hurt him, I think."

"It did. Y/N, I know you're scared to fall back in there with my brother. But I do know that he has been doing his best to show you how much he wants you to stay in his life. All the PDA would show the world how obsessed he is with you." Joe smiled a bit at that, "Y/N, I love you both. I want you to be happy. Are you happy?"

I shook my head and cried, "No. We're not talking anymore. I hurt him. I couldn't take it that maybe this time, he won't hurt me."

He wiped away my tears, "I know it is so damn scary, Y/N. But people change. He changed. You changed too. What if this time, he will give you what you need? What if he learned from his mistakes? What if this time...he'll really put in the effort? Because he's scared to lose you."

"Is he?"

Joe smirked, "I know Nick may look so nonchalant but he gets scared too. All the Mr. President name thing makes him seem so strong but Nick is just a regular guy too, Y/N." He leaned on his seat, "Nick is a regular guy who gets scared of losing the love of his life. And that, my friend, is you."

I chuckled and nodded, understanding everything.

"I have a boy to win."