Falling For You

Thoughts.!!!

Present:

Priya sat by the bay window, while ram lies in bed, soon drifts off to sleep. Seeing ram asleep, she slowly pulled out her journal.

Priya’s POV:

How I longed to pen my thoughts. She starts writing; I know I am long overdue.

House was more chaotic place than our mumbai’s traffic. I never got love from my parents I think I deserved, and as a child, I yearned for it, growing up it was even more difficult. I wanted to go away as far as possible, where my thoughts ceased to exist. But alas, nothing easy comes in the way, I was stuck at my chaotic house, for 24 years of my life, which now felt forever.

College was my escape, not that I had many friends. Actually, I don’t have any. People came and left until I met Juhi. Juhi was my go to friend and Rajat was her husband. Few hours in college, my thoughts were distracted. That’s where I met Sameer, intelligent, goofy, and friendly and whole-hearted smile. I didn’t know if what I had was just an infatuation or love, but I wanted to cling on to him. He seemed perfect, what every girl wishes for. Juhi knew this, and thanks to her extroverted-ness, we soon started talking. When he shared my thoughts on certain topics, I took it for love, “youthful love” I would call it. So, the moment he proposed I couldn’t say no. Thus, started my dating phase, the comfort I always yearned for, I seemed receiving it all. But as they say, “all beautiful things end soon” and that’s actually true. Soon, there were hardships, though it seemed like we were crossing them, we were just slowly drifting apart. That took too long for me to realize. When I spoke about us to my parents, they were ready to refuse, lest I finish my talking.

To my surprise, when I told Sameer of the same, he too showed me the other side of coin. His exact words, “Priya, you have not realized this yet, but our relationship has long been over. In case you didn’t realize we have drifted away.”

Priya : What??  no, I still love you

Sameer: If you say so, but I am sure over this, and I don’t wish to continue this faking.

Priya: Sameer Please understand.

Sameer: I can’t. This is over for me. You know what would make me happy, get married to Ram.

And before I realized, almost involuntarily, my hand slipped onto his cheek. And I left the place as soon as I can.

That night, everything changed for me. I just wanted to be successful, no space for relationships in my heart. It had been a stone, which was slowly, I felt melting for Sameer, but now it has turned into a complete rock back again.

But in anger, thanks to Sameer, that evening I told my parents I would marry Ram.