To Her [COMPLETE]

The Story

It all started back in my tuition in in the year 2017, when a new girl joined our group. She soon was accpeted by our group and became a really important part of our group. From the first days itself, I had a slight crush on this girl but I was not able to talk to her but once we were all returning home together and I saw her using Instagram on her phone. I recently created an account on Instagram just to post some of my quotes and poetries, so I asked her ID and sent her a follow request. She accepted my request, followed me back and texted Hi. And from there everything started, within a span of a month we both were really good friends or rather best friends. We used to talk about a lot of gibberish for hours on stretch. Everything was awesome and then one day at tuition she told me that she had proposed to one guy in her school and he had rejected her, she was really very upset. I understood her absolutely because I just recently had a break-up with my crush Avifauna. So, we both teamed up to teach these two some lessons but separately. During this process we got to become even more better friends which meant that we built a strong bonding. After some time we were both satisfied by the lesson we both taught to our partners, respectively.

FastForward 7 months

After a while suddenly we started to talk on phone and that too at midnight. One such night on the 9th of August 2019, she was teasing me about not having any girlfriend and said that I was going to be forever single. Then I got a bit irritated and told her that if she was unable to find someone whom I would be in relationship with, she would have to be my girlfriend without any hesitation and also gave her the time limit only of one week that is 16th of August 2019. She said OK in a spontaneous yet stressful manner. The next day I called her up in the morning and said, don't even think that I was joking last night, I was very very serious this time about getting into a relationship. This time she sounded really very scared and stressful and really requested me to take back whatever I had said, I didn't. After that two days past, everyday she would tell me to take back my words and I kept on rejecting. Then on 14th of August 2019 she called me and said she was whole heartedly ready which really shocked me it took me nearly a minute or so to recover before I could hear her voice on the my phone saying 'Hello, hello don't worry I am not kidding I am as serious as you are,' I was relieved and at the same time a bit tense. Relieved because I was really in a tension that she will not be happy with me and I was forcefully proposing her. I was tensed because I thought that I was a bad guy and she would get spoiled if she were with me but the reply she gave claimed my heart like anything, she said 'Don't worry I know very well I was your best friend, I will give my everything to change your weaknesses to your strength and I will be with you through every thick and thin.'

It was the 16th of August 2019, the day I have been waiting since the first day I saw her at my tuitions. I text her all my felling and the day before I had told her to give me a proper reply and not 'OK' or 'Hmm' or anything like that. Then when I texted her she just saw the messages and said, 'Same here'. I was really ferocious, containing that furry I went to have a bath and my phone fell in a bucket of water and the water went inside my phone and the phone was dead I was even more ferocious and sad, after that I changed my phone's sim immediately to a normal keypad phone. After which I put up a story on Instagram saying "To all my dearest friends... Please don't call me today as my own phone is already dead... I hope you understand," Seeing this she replied 'What happened to your phone,' To which I said 'Nothing happened and even if anything happened you don't need to care,' After writing this I kept my mom's phone (I was using her phone to use my Instagram and WhatsApp) aside and fell asleep while crying heavily. After around one-and-a-half-hour later I woke up to 20 missed calls from one of my two of my other best friends and 30 missed calls from her. As I was still angry on her I called up my best friends first but she was a bit busy so she was not able to pick up my call. After five minutes or so I called her up, man was that a bad idea to have a quarrel with her, "Where on earth were you, do you even have an idea how much tensed I was for you?" These were the first word coming out of a 14-year-old girl crying her eyes out for her best friend who just became her boyfriend. I was so very guilty, she cried for a total of 15 to 20 minutes, at last I comforted her and promised her that for me she will never ever have to cry again. After that I told her that I had have my evening tea and I will talk to her at night around 1. And from there it started, the phase of my adolescence relationship. I did everything that an adolescence boy would do in his new relationship, I gave her names like Babe, Bae, Baby and more but the most favourite name which we both gave to each other was Jaan (Hindi word for Life). After that I changed the wallpaper of my keypad-operated phone, I even saved her name as Jaan in my phone.

All this madness lasted for a whole week, night long calls, whole day calls, missing each other like hell. But then something worse happened. I was getting regularly teased and reprimanded by one of teachers in school about my studies which were not even true, this loathe spread like wild-fire, she even turned some of my friends against me and some others came to me and reported me the whole situation and how she told them not to talk to me or even be around me but, some of them opposed her and stood with me. Soon this whole matter was picked up by all the teachers, the teachers who always used to praise me started to go against me. I was very nervous and puzzled up and was unable to concentrate on my relationship. Then I suddenly had a feeling that I was truly a bad person and if she stays with me for a long time she may also change in a bad way. I decided to tell her that I need a break and never ever in my life mentioned a breakup. Then I had talk with her and convincing her to give me some time to recover and prove the teacher wrong.

FastForward 2 months

It was the month of October and I was just back from my chilling vacation to Gangtok for the pujas, It was one random day when I called her up was talking rubbish as I always did. While talking I suddenly again came up with the fact that we both were in a relationship just two moths back and I was ready to continue it, but she denied, to which I was surprised. I asked her about the problem, she replied that 'It is not that easy, that you breakup with a person and one fine day you rose up and say that you want back something which you had disowned few time back,' I replied her, 'Hey, listen when did I mention a breakup I just said that I need some time to regain myself from the trauma given to me by my teachers. I thought that I would ask you to come back as soon as everything was fine. I also had to postpone this due to our half-yearly exams,' then I gave her all reasons why I would never mention a breakup with someone who cares for me selflessly. I even gave her time, nearly a month, and asked her to present her decision to me on, the 7th November. Until the night of the 6th November I gave all the possible reasons why we should get back together and that I never mentioned a breakup.

'I think we are better as best friends than a couple, what say?' These were the lines that she told me on the 7th November, these words, till date, ring in my ears. I knew that it was all my fault. Then I asked her to promise me that she would be with me as my best friend no matter what. She agreed to my proposal.

FastForward 2 more months

It's been more than two months, we are not even talking to each other neither on text nor on call. I really want to apologise to her from the bottom of my heart. If you are reading this, the only thing I want to say is that, I AM SORRY, PLEASE FORGIVE ME AND GIVE JUST ONE MORE CHANCE.

Moral:

Never ever break a girl's heart. And specially for me never fall in love with your best friend. But the only thing I want to say to the readers is that never think about what would happen if you confess about your love to your best friend, this only happened to me because I was not capable enough to be with her. I really encourage people to confess there love, who knows maybe they felt the same and yet had the same fear.

P.S: I never mentioned the name of the girl, I did it intentionally as I myself am not sure by which name I should refer her.