fanboy | namkook

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uncomfortable silence. 

it was the only thing that loomed over the three; yoongi let out a heavy sigh, stretching out his limbs and finally spinning around in his chair to face namjoon and seokjin. 

"So, y'all ever like...think about how virginity is just a concept?" 

grim expressions paint both seokjin and namjoon, making yoongi trying to hold back a cheeky smile. namjoon bit his lips, playing with his fingers as he sat down on the couch that rested in yoongi's studio. 

seokjin was leaning against the wall, he seemed unbothered but he'd take a couple of chances to stare at namjoon. 

"alright, fuck this," yoongi grumbled, making his way to the exit of his studio. panic came over namjoon as he noticed the male making his way out the door, he proceeded to drag his legs over to catch up to yoongi. 

"WAIT YOONGI-" 

"look namjoon, shit happens and if you guys don't get closure i won't be able to live. i love you but grow a pair of balls and talk to him." 

with a huff, yoongi slammed the studio door shut, making namjoon go silent and staring back at the other who was still in the room. 

anxiety clouded namjoon's features, he didn't want to see seokjin. the model was the last person namjoon wanted to see at this moment. he absolutely hated him. luckily, seokjin was smart enough to decipher to discomfort namjoon was in. 

"look joonie-"

"don't call me that." 

seokjin's lips formed a line, he felt his chest tighten and began to walk closer to namjoon. he ran a hand through his brown locks, looking directly at namjoon who averted his eyes. 

"i'm not dumb. i know i'm the last person you want to see, i know i'm the last person you want to talk to. but whatever happened between us is in the past, i want to be friends. it's better than nothing right?"

namjoon gave a half shrug, still avoiding eye contact with the taller who stood before him. his jaw clenched, seokjin was right. no matter how much he wanted to avoid his ex-lover he knew he can't, the boy never knew where he would see him anyways. 

"i guess you're right..." namjoon softly spoke, finally looking up to share eye contact with seokjin. 

ah fuck. 

seokjin's cheeky smile and loving eyes that namjoon had once fallen in love with. he doesn't want to fall again. 

he can't and he won't. 

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a/n: yes. how are you guys? decided to wrItE a lil sum yk to get a lil view on what goes on. there'll be quite a lot of this aside from the text messages and stuff like that

if you have any questions about it don't be afraid to ask em here :))

hope ur enjoying the book hehe <3