the girl with the purple hair & black heart 🦇

nyctophilia

darkness,
a place you fall deep into constantly.
the feeling of worthlessness and self doubt surrounds you, like a storm with no rainbow at the end.
to mask the pain, you smile to trick yourself into believing the deep scars on your skin are a figure of your imagination.
only to the to touch, you feel all the emptiness filtering through your body.
as you wear hoodies and skinny jeans through the summer, no one sees your pain, nor do you have the inner strength to tell anyone that you want to curl up into a ball and disappear into the darkness... permanently. so as the self hatred and fear eats you alive and you just learn to  live with it.
as time passes, you wonder what its like to be genuinely happy...but the fear of failure holds you back.
truth be told, you never fully understand how or when you fell into such a dark lonesome place,  all you know is that this horrible place apart of you. forever wondering if their is a way out..