Why am i laughing?
All this time, i've been laughing. Fooling myself around. Convincing myself that you will come back to me, then think of possible ways on how things would happen. Such craziness. Is this how lonely people try to make things out?
I've been so alone all these years. Making myself believe that i'm happy with my own ways, with everything in me. Happy with all those achievements and stuffs. But why is it like this? Everything was so incomplete. Everything wasn't really good. They're just things that would come and go. This momentary bliss doesn't give me the true happiness i'm seeking for. Nothing would really remain. In my heart, i'm still empty.
But this cycle changed, when i finally found you...
That moment when i was trying to get first in line, you noticed me. You were turned on with my naughtiness. You were waving at me like we knew each other. And i was like, "why is he waving at me?" I looked at my back, no one. So he's really waving at me? Weird and scary. But you put a smile in your face, and i made a smile over you. Then you pointed that let the person in front of me be finished. Then, yeah okay? When it's my turn, you keep on smiling. You tried to get a picture of me. I hid my face, telling you that i disagree with that. Then you asked for my number, but i didn't give it. I turned away, smiling. You asked the boy nearby to get my number, but i still didn't give it. Then i walked away..
WHO IN THE WORLD WOULD GIVE YOUR OWN NUMBER TO A GUY FROM LOADING STATION?
Of course i won't do that. You creeper. You should know my number already since you just reloaded me. But after i walked away, i still see your face, your smile, your creepy wave at me.. Will there be a chance for us? Maybe he'll text me later since i just got loaded from that guy. Thoughts of you came. No text messages. Maybe we'll see each other again on that station? Days came by, nothing happened.
I already forget about you....
Then a month passed. I reloaded again at that station. Then i saw you, i remembered you. That face? But maybe you have forgetten about me already. I was curly before, but now my hair's straight, how can you recognize me? Then after loading, the usual, i walked away. Yeah, he must have forgotten about me....
The next morning, somebody texted me....an unknown number.
"Hi?"
"?"
"Hello! I'm *********, the guy from loading station. Im sorry if i get your number. Can we be textmates? What's your name?"
Wooaahhhh! That creep!
I didn't reply. But few hours later...
"It's okay. I'm *****."
Why did i do that?? OMG.
Moments later. Days passed by...
"Do you have a boyfriend?"
"None, i never had one."
"Why? Are you a lesbian?"
WTF?!!
"No, it's my choice. I'm too focused with my studies making me don't mind of having one."
Yes i know, i'm cool.
"What about you? Do you have a girlfriend?"
"Yeah but we already broke up. It's because -------"
"Awww. That's so sad."
Sooooo.... I have a chance! Yeah boy!
I know this guy is hitting on me. I can feel it. He says im beautiful, and that hopefully we could have a chance to meet and know each other deeply. I was so touched. When he's on the loading station, i would pass by and wave at him. Like yeah, i'm so happy with it.
I really thought this would gonna be a breakthrough in my life.....
YOU ARE READING
Failed Love Story
RomanceWhen you actually thought that love will bloom ...... at a loading station??