Poems

Depression

Can I kill myself please?
Can I just up and disappear please?
Can I leave please?
Can my body decay please?
I don't want to live.
May I kill myself?
May I runaway from myself?
May I not live like I have been?
May I hurt myself to feel alive?
I don't want to live.
Should I kill my self?
Should I want to die?
Should I scream into the night?
Should I continue living when I have no reason to?
I don't want to live anymore.
Kill me please.
I keep faking being happy
I don't know who I am anymore
I'm so miserable
I'm getting help but I don't know if it's helping
I don't know if it's my medication that's making me like this
Stab me
Choke me
Cut me
Beat me
Shoot me
Hang me
Drown me
Murder me
But please make sure I'm dead. 
I'm frustrated because I want to die but I don't.
Kill me but don't
Shoot me but don't.
I don't want to live but I'm scared of death.
My body feels heavy
I haven't showered in a week
Either way save me but kill me
This is my depression.