Is it worth it? (Bellatrix and Hermione)

Chapter 1- abandonment

If i wasn't screaming the pain away maybe I could admire the beautiful intricate design of the weapon, lethal in it's owner hands but I was to busy trying to ignore the searing pain and the feeling of the recently polished blade delicately and roughly carving such an unforgivable word into my once pale white flesh i could feel my blood trickled down from the cut on my forearm i tries looking around the room to distract me not only from the pain but from the question i was being asked i couldn't betray my friends but I'm not sure how much more pain i can take. after she had finished her elegant work on my badly bleeding arm i couldnt move not just from the pain but from the mental and physical exhaustion i could barely move heard to look at my forever ruined skin and ruin the word now printed there 'MUDBLOOD' i could feel a few tears leave my tear duck despite how almost run out of them the sight of my how was heartbreaking, but it was true wasn't it I'm a mud blood. Why does everyone here think that's sure a bad thing all are blood is red what a sample just look at my forearm where the bleeding hadnt stopped. i could hear voices around me but i was to disoriented to understand what was happening i think it was due to the enhanced blood lose that had now started t crept its way along the floor expanding its puddle. I think there was fighting going on what if Harry or Ron where in trouble I had to make sure they were ok. i don't know where but i manage to find the strength not sure if it was emotional of physical to turn my head to the side t watch what was happening the scene was heartbreaking in some many ways i saw both harry and ron, luna, olivander and even dobby just before they used apparition leaving me alone in this hell i so harry look and by and say “sorry” really that is sorry that makes it all better. They were gone and had left me in the possession of right now the deadliest woman alive to say i was scared was an understate I slowly turned my head a caught a glimpse of the most terrifying sight before i passed out i saw the look on bellatrix's face when she realised i was here it was the most synical evil smirk that i belived i would be having dreams of it for ever if i even survived a day that was the last thing i saw i could only imagine what was going to happen to me now the only thing i know was that i better enjoy this sleep while it last it might be my last on except my eternal sleep