I walked around thinking of where sam could possibly be. It has been 2 days 6 hours and 2 min since that asshole killed the light in my life. Now everything was dark. Harry liam everyone has been calling me and texting but i just shut my phone off. I ran and got in my car i will find sam. I found a town that he could possibly be in so i headed there. I texted the lads and told them i was alright and what happened.I told them that i wont be home for quite awhile and to not come looking for me.
I drove up to the gas station outside of town. I walked in gave the clerk the money got something to drink and eat. Then headed out and pumped the gas. I drove into town and got a hotel room. I talked to some old but dear friends of mine and they told me they could pry find out where sam was but in the mean time i was supposed to lay low and that they would call.So here i am in my hotel writing in this dumb book tay always wanted me to do. She said that it would be a story passed down from family member to family member but how are we supposed to have a family if she is gone.Fuck im crying again. I miss her so much. Her blue eyes full of light and laughter. Her smile she would always hide it with her hand because she thought it was ugly but it was the reason i woke up in the morning it was my sun it shined so bright. Her sassy yet loving voice talking to me in the morning it sounded as it was as smooth as silk. Im sorry to who ever reads this there are few tear stains.
I put the pen down and looked at the book she had made for me one year. It smelt like her perfume because she always had it sitting on top of it.I cried and cried but i knew it will never bring her back. I went to the dinner down the street after i cleaned up and ate some dinner. On my way back i got a pgone call. "Hey niall i got some info on sam he was last seen entering new york in the usa." he said through the phone. "Just fucking great." i replied "Thanks for the help bro talk to you later." i said and hung up. I walked into my hotel room. I got a towel and went and took a really hot shower that was very much needed. After that i set out my outfit for the next day like tay always would for me. God she was so damn cute.Stop niall shes gone i said to myself and headed to bed. I turned off the llights and thats when i heard tay say "Im not dead niall go to sam he will answer your questions. That freaked me out a little but i eventually got to sleep."NOOOO" i yelled as i caught her head right before it hit the ground i looked up to see sam but he was gone. I watched the light leave her eyes and her sweet color and happiness leave.Then it just started over again and again and again. I shot up from my bed looking over next to me forgetting that she was dead and hopeing she was there to help me calm down. I was crying again. Great now i cant sleep the ever reacurring dream that will never leave.
