Cher and Demi

Confusing thoughts

First of all I just want to say thanks for reading, I've just noticed its been read almost 600 times!!! When I started writing this it was for me and I never thought it would be read 60 times let alone 600 so thanks :) Here is chapter 4!

Demi's POV

Before I had the chance to say something to what Cher had just said she kissed me, I mean she really kissed me. I honestly thought we would never kiss again. It wasn't just a peck either, I felt her tongue lick my lip so I let it in and our tongues fought for dominance, she won. It was as of she had wanted this to happen for so long too but I wasn't sure. I broke off the kiss and said 'woah' she turned back to me and said 'I know.'

(A.N yes I just quoted faking it, it's like my favourite show along with pretty little liars.)

After what seemed like a lifetime of silence I finally spoke, 'erm Cher what does this mean? Like I think I like you but your with Craig and you've already said your happy with him, but that was before we just kissed, tell me what you think?' Cher looked at me nervously and said, 'I don't know demi I really don't, I do like you but I can't work out if my feelings for you are stronger than Craig. I'm not saying no to anything right now because I would be lying if I said I couldn't see myself with you sometime I just think right now I need time to figure it out.' I nodded at what she had just said, I couldn't help feel a little disappointed at the 'time' part, time meant having space between us and I really didn't want that now.

Cher's POV

Time. Why did I even say that word, I could that upset her straight away, I feel so stupid. Demi didn't reply I could see the hurt in her eyes, all I wanted to do was give her a hug but I knew now wasn't the right time. I got up to leave her dressing room and just as I was about to leave the room I heard a faint cry, 'please tell me this time won't be long, I don't think I can cope with not knowing.' I sighed to her and said 'Demi I don't know how much time I need to sort out my feelings but I promise you ill try to sort my head out quickly, I don't want to leave you hanging like this but I'm sorry I can't give you an answer right now, I really am.' And with that I left and I could hear her lock the door. i had to leave I couldn't stand to see the pain on her face, the pain I knew I had caused her. I knew that if I was hurting so was she and I was hurting a lot, I had just told the girl I've had a crush on for years that I need time, I've basically told her I don't want to be with her which honestly is a total lie, I do want to be with her it's just complicated, I have Craig and there's other stuff to think about. What would my fans say? my management? my family? I need to talk to someone but who I really don't know, I don't want to talk to any of my family about it, there's always cheryl but I barely speak to her after xfactor but she won't judge me, I know she won't.

Demi's POV

I felt numb, Cher had left me. Or at least she had left me for now. Before I could think about Cher there was a knock on the door, was Cher back already? I ran to the door, opening it hoping it was Cher. It wasn't. Alan was stood at my door looking worried. 'Are you alright Demi? You ran and I quickly wrapped up the show, don't worry about anyone seeing that I made up something and no one will know any different.' Alan paused before continuing, 'want to tell me what happened out there? Wheres Cher? I'm here if you need to talk.' When he mentioned Cher, I broke down into tears, I couldn't help it, he gave me a hug so I told him, 'Cher, she left, not sure where she is now. What happened out there? I really don't know a thought came into my head and I acted on it. Now I feel shit, everything's messed up Alan.' Alan looked at me with one of those sympathetic looks that I hate before hugging me tighter and saying 'everything will be alright, you and Cher will be fine. What do you mean you feel shit? Do you regret kissing her?' I shook my head and said 'no, no I don't regret it at all, I just, I dunno it's brought so many feelings up that I didn't know about and it's overwhelming and confusing and I'm trying to explain to Cher what I'm feeling when I don't even really know myself. Im not being rude but i just want to sleep, crying has got me all tired.' Alan got up and tuned to the door and said, 'Demi I can see you've got yourself all worked up but I am here if you want a proper chat when you've thought about things for a while,' and then he left.

Cher's POV

I picked up my phone and hoped cheryl still had the same number, what was I going to say to her, we haven't said a word in like two years. 'Hello?' I smiled to myself as I heard her Geordie voice, 'erm hi cheryl, it's me Cher, I erm, I didn't know who else to call that wouldn't judge me, i know we don't really speak but do you mind chatting to me I need a bit of advice.' There was a brief pause before she replied, 'yeah sure, what's up pet?' 'I don't really know where to start, okay well you know when you were mentoring me and my 'girl crush' was demi lovato, well after I worked with her I think I've realised the crush is still there, I kind of didn't mind like I have Craig but today demi kissed me and everything's a mess now, I can't think straight.' All I heard was a chuckle down the phone, 'I'm sorry Cher for laughing it was just when you said you can't think straight, but in all seriousness I know how your feeling. I had these feelings once, you want to know what I did? I did nothing. I regret it every single day, I wish I had kissed the girl I was crushing on but I didn't, I think you shouldn't ignore what your feeling. When you feel something and try to ignore it you only feel it more, I'm not saying get with Demi but you need to think of everything before you make your decision. My advice put yourself first here, do whatever will make you happy. Well I don't expect you to say anything to me now, I'll get going now, I hope I've helped. Call me if you want to chat, I do hope whatever you decide goes well. Bye Cher.' 'Thanks cheryl, and yeah I'll call you, bye.' And with that I knew what I had to do, I knew who made me happy.

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Hello anyone reading this story. Thanks for reading and I just wanted to talk about the lack of updating. I am in my second year of uni and there is so so much work, I literally don't have time at the moment to sit and think about writing and the story line. I'm gonna try update like once a month for now but it will be more regularly when I have the time!

So I just wanted to know who actually reads this?

As I mentioned earlier I watch faking it, anyone else? And if you do are you a reamy or karmy shipper?

Oh and guess who met Demi two weeks ago?! It was such an overwhelming experience!