Hard Times | Suayeon |

Chapter 1

SuA's pov.
Okay it's the first day of school... I can't believe that it starts again. I feel so bad after yesterday. My father hit my mum again and I couldn't do anything... Fucking bastard. I hate him so much...

7:50
Okay I'm here again. This big and ugly building... These faces, these people.... It's terrible... I hate people. Sometimes I'd like to hide in a small room and don't leave... But it's imppssible and I have to look at these idiots.
Okay when our teacher will be here? I wanna go home and kill myself..
-Hey Queen!!!
-oh hey Tae, hi Kookie!
I hugged them. Oh my God.. I'm so jeleous. They are so happy and sweet. I'd like to be this happy...
-What were u thinking about?
-Nothing special Kookie. Only about my stupid life...
-Hey, don-
-Hello students!
Ah shit here we go...
-We'll talk later
-Mhm... - I said coldly.
They're so sweet but when I'm sad or angry, I don't wanna talk with anybody. I just wanna do... Ugh... I prefer to hurt myself... Don't ask...

-Okay so we have a new student here. Could you introduce yourself honey?
-S-sure... My name is Lee Siyeon and... I... Hope that you'll take care of me... I really do...

Who tf this goblin is... An another stupid person. Fuck yourself Lee Si.. Siy... Fuck it

After this amazing lesson, we could go home but somebody touched my hand and it was... No way...
-Hey! I'm Lee Siyeon! Could you show me this school? You seem nice!
-First of all, I'm not nice and no I won't
-um... Okay... I mean sorry...
-don't apologize me, just fuck off, and keep your distance - that's all I want
-Sure...
OH MY GOD

-Hey Suaaaa, can we talk?
-No Kookie, I'm sorry but I have enough for today, I just wanna rest
-Are u sure? Remember, that we are always here for you
-I know, you are so cute guys. Go and spend your free time together. I gotta go, see ya tomorrow!
-Bye bye!
-See ya!

And I left...
I entered my house and I heard screams out of the kitchen. My dad... Is drunk again... He's screaming and destroying everything ... I have to go to my room...
-Ouch! - a glass hit my arm. Oh my God it hurts... My dad is so angry... I have to write to my mum...
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Mum❤️

Hey mum, please don't
come here. Dad is angry
and he's destroying
everything..

Oh not again...
Okay honey, are you
save now?

Yes mum... Take care please

I will, don't come out
from your room

Sure
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I can't, I'm shaking... I wana leave this world... I wanna leave my life... I wanna be save, I wanna be loved, I wanna feel special.... I have to... Do something... I can't handle it..

And that's how I made an another scarf on my wrist... I saw blood but I was kinda happy that I feel pain...