Every One has a time in their life, where they are not sure of their path in their life and try to escape it from it. Each person has his own way of doing the escape thing.
And here is the story of Rose, who escaped her many years.
Rose was what you call a Hard working student who followed and did what her parents ask her to do. Until 4th year of her university. Time has come where her insecurities which she tried to hide out has come out and started questioning her.
"What am I doing?"
"Am I Suitable for doing a job?"
"Can I do it?"
"Do I like what I am studying?"
"Would my parents dislike me, if I didn't get a job?"
"Would world laugh at her, If I didn't get a Job after studying in a Precious University?"
"I am not Perfect. What If I went to a Job and fucked it up?"
Rose being the introvert found that she need a guidance but her Kind father who loved her so much is a drunkard with no consciousness almost every time and a mother who had all her hopes on the Rose for her to be a successful person and a sister who was having a happy new married life made her not to utter a single word of her depression.
Having a lot of pressure, Rose tried to go to her friend but they are also at the important time of their lives. She went to her Guy Friend and also the only crush but to only find that he was having a issues with his girl friend and words became fight. And this only lead to Rose knowing of a really bad truth that The Guy Friend just want to use her from the start as he knew that Rose has major crush on him and now he was bored with her so he asked her to fuck off.
As said, Bad luck comes all at a time.At this time, her father has died due to health problems. Even though there was a war between Rose parents every time, still 20 years of marriage was for nothing. Life went down for the Rose.
Rose found that she has no more goal, no more life in her self. She became a shut in and didn't participate in the final Project of the last year making her repeated student for one more year. But this didn't work her insecurities has just became more and more. She was in her room day and night avoiding people and communication.
She tried to stop thinking about things, it was a life where nothing matters to her and she too not let any thoughts into her brain. Her thoughts were nil like a blank paper. Until a day come where she was not able to stay as the university has closed due to Corona virus. There was no person in the whole University.
No food deliveries make her understand that the world has changed while she was coping up in her room. For first time in a while, she looked up into the news only to know that world was in danger also a thought that has struck her
"How was her family?"
Rose who didn't speak with the family from a year was afraid for a first time, She was afraid some thing may happen to her remaining family. Afraid she would be disappoint on herself for not making her mother happy even without trying. And this fear was more than the fear of her insecurities.
She tried to call her mother after a year but unexpectedly she didn't lift the call making her more nervous. Rose didn't think any more and Hope into the Train to her home.
When she reached the home, she only found that her mother was brushing her teeth, Rose whose tears has been dried up suddenly been filled up. She sat on the floor and started crying.
Rose mother who saw rose child crying in front of the door, ran to her and hit slightly on the her head and asked with tear in her eyes as it been a year Rose mother saw her child.
"Rose, what happened? Little girl, tell mom will give you justice."
"Mom, why didn't you lift the call?"
"Ah! You called at 12 in the night. About to call you after brushing up."
Even if Rose tried to avoid it, Being in the same house let the family finally understand Rose insecurities and used the social distancing time to build the relationship once more and come out of the cage.
