Do ajnabee (ragsan)

Part 21

Note: to avoid confusion dear readers please re-read part 20 

There have been some major changes 

Hope you enjoy the story 

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she said him what she had to 

but then why the fuck was she feeling this bad

she was attracted to him but attraction can't be love

then why she felt haunted by his pained face  

His words were ringing in her mind

And also someone's

'you can't love anyone ragini , you don't deserve love'

Why was this emotion so painful 

"get yourself together ragini" she spoke to her reflection in mirror

Splashing water continuously on her face

Tears rolled down her eyes

"no no no" she screamed 

"This can't be happening with me"

"I can't turn this weak not now not ever" she to herself

Some emotions are plain are simple but wrong is the time we realize them and that moment our situation

For someone like ragini, love and all were not her cup of tea that was the belief she carried

sometimes we ourselves won't know what we want and Ragini was in same situation

she denied what she felt for sanskar

she was confident that it was better this way than any other

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Laksh and Swara were sitting in mandap following the marriage rituals

Sanskar eyes looked ghosted, he was physically present there but mentally absent

He never felt so defeated in his life as he felt today

He couldn't decide who was right mind or heart

Mind said she didn't love him and heart said she loved him, she felt the same as he did the look in her eyes said she loved him but his mind denied reminded him of all her spoken words

Why is love so complicated and this sick game of destiny made everything tough

Why did he meet her again, and why now of all times did he realize he loved her

He shouldn't have realised at all , atleast she wouldn't have been so hurt 

He felt  pain because he thought his confession and actions had hurt her 

"ghatbandan ke liye aga aye" (come forward to tie knot) the pandit announced

Everyone's gaze started searching for Ragini nor she was there and nor shika

"Where are these girls" nani asked shail he nodded in disagreement

Swara looked on worried

There was something wrong she could feel this from weeks

"Uttra" AP sighed her to move forward

She nodded her head and moved towards mandap

Her gaze fell on Ragini who was walking towards them along with shika and abhi

"Ragini" she said and all turned towards her

Shail moved towards them

"where you had been , you need to do ghatbandhan" he pulled her towards mandap

Swara glared her and she mouthed sorry with cute pout

She did ghatbandan

And smiled at them with teary eyes

She walked and stood next to Shail

He questioned through eyes and she nodded as nothing

Ragini's gaze shifted to kunal who moved other side

He looked worried

She decided to check on him so she walked towards him

"how is she now" kunal was on some phone call

"fine I'll try to be there as early as I can"

"no I can't and won't , this is our family matter and I won't be dragging her in this anymore"

"take care" he cut the call abruptly

"kunal" he turned towards her

"all ok"

"yes ragini" he replied

"you sure"

He nodded and they walked in

Swalak were performing marriage rituals

Swalak were taking pehara's (rounds around fire)

All were showering flowers on them

Sanskar tried hard to not look towards her

But every time his eyes found an away towards her

Ragini felt his gaze all time but she didn't dare to look at him

While showering flowers

Their eyes locked for a moment

'What have you done to me ragini' he thought

"Why are you doing this to me sanskar' she thought

'I love you' sanskar said in mind

'I can't love you' she said

she quickly lowered her eyes as if sacred her would see all her fears

"yeh vihva sampan hua" (the marriage is completed) the pandit announced them as husband and wife

Swalak moved towards elders taking their blessing

They took blessings of all elders and moved towards Adarsh and parnitha both blessed the couple

Sanskar and Ragini were standing next to them

Ragini hugged swara and punched in laksh's stomach

"You are having great responsibility," she said him

And laksh smiled at her nodding his head

"Let's move towards other rituals," nani said

That moment ragini received some text seeing which she was shocked

She didn't know what to do, but now she was understanding the reason for Kunal's worry

Dam that man

All moved in but Ragini stood there frozen looking at her family how happy all were if she announces the news now everyone would be worried but she had to decide soon

"Ragu "Shail called her

"Hmmm"

"Where are you lost?"

"Nowhere" she answered tucking his arm but stopped

"shail"

"ha"

"I need to be somewhere " she said and shail looked confused

"what happened"

What she said shocked him but more than that he was angry

"There is no need for you to be involved," she said sternly

"I can decide that," she said in the same tone

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