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Prologue

Aihara's POV

She's cold like an ice, hard as a rock. She treats me as the most annoying student in the world, and I don't know what I did wrong for her to be that angry with me.

Well, maybe it's because of our first encounter? But damn, that little encounter. I actually also hated her for that. But I didn't even know why she made a big deal out of it. I moved on from it after a few days, duh.

No students would want to mess up with her, she's different from the others. Although she doesn't wear any expressions and is always covered with her strict aura, her eyes are still full of sadness and pain. She's so pretty and hot that even a straight girl would bend for her, umm yeah, for some reason, that includes me.

I honestly didn't expect that I would fall for that annoying professor of mine.

The first time we met, we already had anger with each other, we hated each other. But I don't know what happened. It's like the world gets upside down and I fell without knowing it. But I knew there was no chance for us. She's already in love with someone else. I have not even started yet I have already lost the battle.

But I, Aihara Zachary L. Carson will love her secretly, will make her happy in my own way and will protect her as much as I can.

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I'm currently here at my condominium waiting for her patiently. It is actually her 23rd birthday so I have a surprise party for her. I don't know how it ended up this way, but I'm courting her. I'm courting her as if I do not know who her heart really belongs. Here I am, putting so much effort into her once again. It's been months since she agreed to me courting her. Sometimes I feel like she likes me too, but most of the time, she never fails to hurt me, never fails to tell me that she'll never gonna like me. But still, once again, here I am, despite our fights, waiting for her silently, being there for her whenever she's feeling lonely. What can I do? I'm in love with her.

Anyway, I baked her favourite dessert, blueberry cheesecake. I've been practising it since I'd known how much she likes it. Got bruises and cuts to achieve its perfect taste, but as long as it's for her, I'm willing to get hurt. corny.

Aside from that, of course, I also cooked some menus like adobo, seafood and chicken curry, ordered some pizza, and put decorations in this condo. Some blue and black balloons since that's her favourite colour.

The moment she steps into this condo, a combination of blue and black floating balloons with our pictures at the end of their ties are the ones to welcome her. Some of those pictures are stolen shots of her, some are those when I'm teasing her, and some are just from her Instagram account. Each printed pictures also has a short message behind its paper, since every picture has meaning and memories for me.

It's already 8:30 pm , she's supposed to be here at 9:00 pm since that's the time I told her to come. I fixed myself, put on some light makeup, and wore a dress. Who knows, we might dance later hehe.

Time has passed, and it's 9:00 pm now. My heart beats faster than usual and I feel like I'm gonna throw up due to the nervousness that I'm feeling. I'm always teasing her and all, I always stay near her, but bruh, it's still the same feelings whenever she's around. The butterflies on my tummy and the unusual heartbeats that only shout for her name.

I started lighting up the candles and some light decorations, so once she got here, everything would be all ready. I also set up all the foods on the table and even played music to feel the romantic atmosphere more.

However, time still passes, and the lighted-up candles almost finish off, but there's no Raquel Bellona Zorel that came. I wonder what happened? Maybe she just dropped by somewhere to get something? Or maybe she had overtime on our campus? Or maybe her car wheels get flat somewhere? I mean, it is impossible that she forgot about it, isn't it? I reminded her about it 2 hours ago.

Maybe she got stuck in traffic? Yeah right, maybe she is.

So I chatted her once again.

" Hi, prof! I'm still waiting here at my condo! I will wait for you. See you later, drive safe, mwa

Not minding that it was already 10:30 pm, I sat patiently in front of the table and waited for her once again.

I hope she likes it.

But time still passes, it's already 12:05 am but there is no professor of mine that came in. This time, I felt hopeless. I lost hope that she'd come, and I now believed that she had forgotten about our plans. I stared at the prepared foods on the table and decided to clean them up already.

With a dropped shoulder and teary eyes, I kept all the food inside the refrigerator. I'm trying my best not to cry, thinking of all the efforts that I have made tonight. Of course, she did not tell me to do this, but I wanted to make her happy on her special day.

My attention got caught when my phone rang.

It's Shai, one of my friends.

"Hello, Ary, sorry for calling at this hour, but didn't you tell me that you and Prof have plans tonight? Well uhm, how should I say this, I actually saw her in the restaurant a while ago. S-she's with uhm..she's with her ex, Allyson. ."

The moment I heard what she said, I felt like all my efforts for her for the past few months had been washed off. I mean, I am aware that she still loves her ex, but I thought I could change what she feels. I thought I might have a chance with her. It is so dumb of me to assume that way.

Unconsciously, I dropped my phone, ending the call between Shai and I.

T-They're what now?

They're together? H-how, I-I thought within months that we were together, I thought somehow that I was special to her. Dmn, why would I think of it that way?

Admit it or not, I'm hurting. My eyes start to get wet as the tears come out of it. I'm expecting it, I'm prepared for it, but I didn't know it would be this hurt. How could you, Prof? How could you be so special to me even if you always hurt me? How is it that you are the reason of my smiles but you are also the reason of my pain?

I feel so numb right now, I want to cry all night, I'm feeling mad and sorry for myself. Why do I keep pushing myself to someone that is already in love with someone else?

It hurts so badly. Thinking how happy she is celebrating her special day with the person she really loves. They are happy together and that's for sure.

With this heavy feeling, and a broken heart, I fell asleep. But I think it's not even about 5 minutes since I closed my eyes when the door of my condominium opened, and a person was running fast to go inside.

When I opened my eyes, I saw the reason of my pain; the person I love.

She looks nervous, uncomfortable, and looking at me intently with those worried eyes.

Here she comes again, showing me emotions that make me assume.

"C-carson, l-let me explain"

I got up from the table chair where I fell asleep and stood in front of her. I held her hand without any second thought, and that is when my tears started falling. I know from this very moment, I will make a decision that will hurt me the most, but will make her happy for sure.

I smiled bitterly at her.

"Prof Ilona, I think I can't hold on anymore."

I couldn't help but sob as I mentioned the first sentence of my decision.

"I think I'm starting to feel tired, I think I can't fight for you anymore. I promised to always make you happy, but me being you will never be the reason of your smiles. So now, I want to give you the real happiness you deserve. And that is to let you go and be happy for you and the person you really love. I love you and belated happy birthday, Prof Ilona."

My tears kept falling as I handed her my gift for her. It is a necklace with a letter inside the box of it.

"This will be the last, I promise. Goodbye, Prof Ilona"