August 12, 2019
What is the deal between you, me and Augusts?
First, two years ago, I found out I have feelings for you
Then, last year, after you've been gone for half a year and radio silence, I realized that you and your friends are not my type of friends
And been hurt for all that,
I decided to end our friendship
Now, in a common birthday party
We go together
And actually have a good time
And again more fun today
Seriously
I fucking never forgot you or what?
Yes, I'm kind of overwhelmed by these feelings
But what are they exactly?
I miss having guys talking to me?
I miss this kind of attention?
I know that at least I didn't make a fool of myself today or any other day with you recently
And I know because when we talked, it made me happy
And I know I was kind of nervous talking to you
But I am not jealous
I am not deceiving myself
I am not feeling like reaching for you
But I am longing to say your name
Longing to spend more time
Longing to not let this die
Guess time will tell how this unfolds one more time
