Desperation [Feelings #6]

October 27, 2019

Everyday I wait for you to come through the door
Everyday I see you and my hearts jumps a cord
Everyday I tell myself that I'm only being a good friend

But it's all a lie

I'm still falling for you
I still crave for you
I'm still this stupid girl desperate for a minimal attention

And it's increasing somehow

Just to see you was okay for awhile
But my need to reach to you is stronger each time
Physically, mentally and through texts

(My words are escaping through  my fingers and you don't really know)
My feelings are escaping through each text and you don't really know)
You don't really know

I really thought I was done with you
But blame my lonelyness perhaps
Cause I just can't do that
I just can't stop being affected by you
I just can't stop being friends with you
I just can't

And I know it is not a good place to be
But I'm trying
Trying to see a flicker in the dark
And for all I know, this flicker is getting close by

When summer comes, your absence will help me get through these all
Right?

I can only hope
It's been two years
Eventuallly you will disappear

You will