Supernatural Smut

I'm Sorry : Castiel XReader

Not Smut

It had never been easy being a hunter. Growing up in "life" had made you jaded, sarcastic and lonely. A loneliness you would never try to fill because of the way you lived. You could be gone Tomarrow and you would never let another person get close enough to you to feel that pain when it did finally happen.
You had run into the Winchesters on hunts and at Bobby's. Even though you chose to hunt alone (with occasional assistant) those boys and Bobby were the closest thing to family that you had.
Then there was the angel, Castiel. He was the one that stayed on your mind the entire drive to Sioux Falls.
Dean had called a few days ago, said they needed help with some demons. You kinda thought they would have it all taken care of by the time you got there. You made the drive anyway. It was close to midnight when you pulled into the scrap yard and parked your truck.
You did not bother to knock, just walked in to see Bobby behind his desk. Sam and Dean sitting in front of it and Cass standing to the side. The sight of the angel gave you butterflies, but you pushed it down.
"Hey." You said to the room
"(Y/ N)." Sam said as he was the first to get up and hug you.
"Hey Sam, you look good." Sam smiled and moved back so Dean could say hi.
"(Y/N) Thanks for coming." Dean said as he hugged you.
You turned your head and whispered in his ear "you going to tell me what is really going on?"
"I will later." He replied
"Why is the cranky, drunk the last to get a hug?" Bobby asked
"Your not the last, I have yet to receive one." Castiel said from his corner. You looked at him and smiled as you walked over to Bobby.
"Hey Bobby, how you been." You said as you embraced him.
"I'm good girl, you been taking care of yourself?" Bobby said leaning back to look you over.
"You know I have." You said as you turned and headed for the angel.
"Hey Cass." You said as you wrapped your arms around his neck.
"(Y/N)." He said as you stepped back from him but kept eye contact.
"Well now that the hellos are out of the way, I am grabbing a beer and stretching my legs. Dean care to join me?" You asked
"Yeah, right behind you." Dean said as he followed you out.
You grabbed a beer from the fridge and ducked out the side door. Dean was close behind, once you knew you were alone with him you let him have it.
"So I just drove half way across the country for nothing Dean! I knew it, when you said you needed help with demons, what a load of shit! You guys can take on demons in your sleep." You spat out placing a hand on your hip and the beer to your mouth.
"You done?" Dean asked, smirking at you.
"For now, tell me why I'm here." You said
Dean took a deep breath and looked you directly in the eye.
"Its Cass." Dean said
"What about him, looked fine to me."
"He thinks he is going to be a hunter. He has shut off angel radio, cut all ties with heaven, thinks he is going to be our third wheel." Dean said running his hand down his face.
"And?" You stated to Dean crossing your arms over your chest.
Dean turned and looked at you " what do you mean and, you know we can't babysit him." Dean said back.
"Oh! So you want me to?" You replied
"You got a hunt lined up?" Dean asked
"Ghost in Maine, heading there in the morning."
"Take him with you, he can help. He just needs a few easy hunts under his belt. Please, I know how you feel about him." Dean said
You kicked the ground in front of you and glared at Dean.
"I have no idea what you are talking about. Damit! Dean." You said running your fingers through your hair.
"Fine, I will take him with me." You said turning to head back inside. "I hate you sometimes."
"You love me." Dean said following you back inside.

It shocked you how easy it was to hunt with Cass. You had been on several since that night at Bobby's. You were currently in Montana, taking care of a werewolf.
"Cass I need sleep!" You said as you entered the hotel room.
"I know (Y/N) but the sooner we take care of this the better, no more victims." He said
"First thing in the morning, I need 3, 4 hours tops."
Cass was about to argue with you when you heard a sudden flap of wings.
Suddenly there were three angels standing around Cass.
"What the hell." You said
"Castiel must pay for what he did to heaven." One of the angels said.
Just as Cass reviled his angel blade they grabbed him.
You tried to fight them off, but they were to strong. They left you in a bloody pile on the floor. Where you had a perfect view of the bloody and beaten Cass.
You reached for your phone, hit Deans number and dropped the phone. You could hear Dean screaming your name, but could not pick up the phone, you were going in and out of conciousness. Everytime you would come to, you could see him. Bloody and broken, your heart was breaking, you had to do something, but every time you tried to stand your legs would give out.
It was 2 more hours of watching them torture Cass before Sam and Dean got there. They killed the angels and Dean went to help Cass, while Sam came to you.
"(Y/N)." Sam said crouching down to you
"Get me to him Sam." You said looking Sam right in the eye
He did not question your request, he just picked you up and brought you to Cass. He placed you gently next to him, you turned your body so you could look in his eyes. You ran your fingers through his hair.
"Listen to me you son of a bitch. You can't die! I need you, damit Cass. I need you. I'm sorry I never said it before, I was scared of letting you in. I'm sorry, I need you." You said gripping your hand in his hair.
Cass looked at you, and placed a hand on your cheek.
"I need you to." He replied
"Alright let's get these two out of here." Dean said
Dean carried Cass out and Sam helped you out. The boys placed you both in the back of the impala, you leaned on eachother for support as Dean sped away.
"I love you Castiel."
"I love you to (Y/N)." Cass replied
You took a deep breath and got closer, maybe it was not going to be the end of everything if you let him in.

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