Distict 9

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Minho POV

I couldn't control myself.At all.When I heard Jisung yelling in distress and when he was being drugged,I felt sheer panic.But then,I converted it into anger and tried to fight.I needed to save my precious baby.My beautiful,fragile baby.When I woke up,my heart was torn.I wanted to go and save him.When they came to check up on me,they had to sedate me so I wouldn't beat one of the doctors to death.Being off medication wasn't helping me either.I couldn't control my anger.The fact that I was trapped only made me think back in time.

I had always had problems with my anger.It was something I inherited from my dad.We never got along.Every night,he would come back drunk as a pick and would make enough noise God could hear him.Everything I did annoyed him and,given the fact that I get irritated very easily myself,every remark he made at me would result in a shouting match.But,of course,I was the one who had to shut up,because he was my parent,that's what every adult said.It didn't sit well with me,so I grew very,very spiteful and distanced myself away from him until we completely stopped talking to each other.My mom was my saving grace.I never argued with her.I never got annoyed at her.But,I could see she was constantly getting tired,having to witness all my fights with my father.

At school,I had a friend who was the total opposite of me.Soonhee was shy,never got angry,always had a smile on her face.She was my rock and promised that she'll never leave my side whatever I did to her.When I told her about my sexuality,she accepted me with open arms.She was an angel to me,but she was constantly picked on because everyone else thought of her as a witch and a weirdo for always smiling.The biggest problem was that her crush was one of the bullies.I would threaten the people who bullied her to stay away from her and was always around her to prevent it,but it continued regardless of what I did.They would find a time she was alone and tell her nasty,nasty things.She never cried from it though.She endured it all out of love for her crush.One day,I found out they had hit her.I was about to go and make them wish they were never born.She was the only thing that stopped me,saying she was fine and everything was OK.I shouldn't have listened.I really shouldn't have.

I wasn't with her this one time because of detention and the bullies got her.I found her,covered in bruises and crying uncontrollably.She told me that the guy she liked rejected her brutally.I comforted her and sent her home,happy that she finally wouldn't have to suffer any longer because of that bastard.When we got to her house,she hugged me tight and sobbed.

''Minho?''

''Yes?''I said softly.

''You're the most wonderful friend I've ever had.Thank you for being beside me all this time.''

''You too.''

''I love you.Till the end of time.''

''I love you too.''

I got home and the whole night,I couldn't shake off the strong gut feeling that something was very,very wrong.The next day,as I arrived at school,I noticed that everyone were looking at me and whispering to eachother.Some with sorrow on their faces.I thought it was weird and waited for Soonhee to show up.The clock ticked and she didn't appear.I decided she was just late and went to class so I wouldn't get another detention.She didn't come the whole day and I was getting worried.Near the end of the day,I was called into the principal's office.The school canselor was also there.They explained to me that Soonhee had been found dead in her house last night.It was like time froze.I sat there as the two adults were comforting me.I soon learned that it was a suicide.She hung herself and her parents found her.I was the last person who had seen her alive.For the next two weeks,there were flyers all over the school and a memorial was made for her.Suddenly,it seemed like everyone cared for her,giving me their condolences.I was crushed.I was alone now.I didn't have anybody else.She didn't deserve to die.I comforted her parents at the funeral,feeling numb inside myself.I could see the guy who had driven her to take her life away wasn't really phased by the whole situation and after a few weeks,everyone forgot she had ever even existed.One time I was sitting alone at lunch as usual, occasionally glancing to the empty spot next to me where she once sat.All of a sudden,that guy she had liked started making nasty remarks towards her loud enough for the whole cafeteria to hear.I tried not to explode,her death still heavy onto my heart.The grief had evaporated my desire to fight.But,anger began rising into me as his comments became worse and worse and louder.I heard his voice come towards me.He lowered his face to mine and practically shouted in my ear.I still tried not to give him what he wanted.The last thing he said was the thing that tipped me over the edge.