Status: completed ✔
When Valerie realized she can do her freelance job from anywhere in the world, she moved to Seoul. She met a lot of interesting people in her first month there, including.... BTS members. 🥺
And she fell in love.
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"Whoever sai...
After I didn't reply at all for two weeks, Yoongi stopped texting and calling me. In the meantime I told Clara what happened and obviously she told Namjoon too. Somehow Taehyung was aware of the situation but didn't say anything directly to me. He was just checking in on me a bit more than usual. We talked on the phone like 5 times since that motorcycle accident.
I don't get why they all make such a fuss about it. I am really okay with the whole situation, better to know about this now than later. It's not like I have the right to be angry anyway. He wasn't my boyfriend or something like that.
I was thinking and eating my lunch in the cafeteria. Other interns are spending their break outside or in the nearby cafe. I like to have my peace during lunch time.
"Valerie, you done?" my boss said. "Yes sir." "Take this food and iced coffee in the Genius Lab, I can't find Kyong anywhere." Kyong was usually working in the cafeteria and ocasionaly delivering food to idols in BigHit. Wait, Genius Lab? Well, this day had to come.
I stood 10 seconds in front of Yoongi's studio and took a deep breath. I buzzed. Another 20 seconds and nothing. I buzzed again. "Coming, coming, who is so inpatient?" he said while opening the door. "Oh, it's you." "I brought food and coffee." I got in and put everything on a table. "Anything else?" "Why are you so formal to me Val? I tried to call and explain..." "No need for explanation. You have your life and do what you want with it." I was about to leave the room. He grabbed my wrist: "It's not my fault, she...she just can't take no for an answer. It's complicated." I pulled my hand "And that is not my problem. Not anymore."
I got out and walked back to the part of building I work in. I was proud of how I handled that situation.
The rest of the day was pretty much the same as usual. I got off work at 5 pm and walked to Sinsa station. It is only a 6 minutes drive to Seoul Institute of Technology. On my walk back home I went in a drugstore and bought a bottle of rose, clay mask for my face, some strawberries and sweet potatoes.
Friday night
Lately I was always alone in the apartment. Clara wanted to be with Namjoon as much as possible, because BTS was going on a big tour in three months.
I was watching Hwarang when my phone buzzed. Video call from Taehyung.
Ah shibal, he always sees me when I look like an idiot. My face was covered with clay and my hair up in a messy bun. Well, he saw me when I was drunk and crying so this is fine.
"Hey, I am watching Hwarang right now, hahah what a coincidence." I said. He was laying in his bed smiling. He dyed his hair black. "Nice face." "Shut up, not all of us are lucky to have a beautiful face as yours." I rose my glass "Cheers" "True, true, I am handsome... Noona, why aren't you at Bangtan's house with the rest of the crew? Clara is there." "I am tired." "You can't avoid Yoongi forever." "Actually I saw him today." "And?" "And nothing, we talked a little and that's all." "Okay, so you are alone on Friday, drinking rose." "And eating strawberries" "Ah you are killing me. I want strawberries too now." he smirked.
"You are at your apartment?" I asked. "Yes. I needed some alone time. I want to play games until 3am haha" "Army is going to write 'go to sleep' a million times on Weverse hahah" "Yeah, they are so precious, always worrying about our health. Wait, what do you write on Weverse?" "Oh I only write TAEHYUNG OPPAAAA NOTICE ME all the time hahahaha" "Pabo!"
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We talked for 30 minutes.
"Your voice is so calming Taehyung, I could listen to you talk forever." "And with this handsome face, puff, it's a deadly combination" he smiled. He wasn't wrong though. "Oh, and you are so humble, like always.
"Noona, do you want to go somewhere with me tomorrow?" "If you stop calling me noona, then yes. Where?" "It's a surprise. you will like it." "You must tell me so I know what to wear." "Wear whatever you want." "Oh okay."
It was 1 am. We were both in our beds and half asleep.
"Noona?" "Nae?" "Do you still love Yoongi?" he raised his eyebrow. "Aniyo, that ship has sailed. I wish him happiness." I was serious. "Noona?" "Stop calling me noona, it's weird. I'm only one year older than you." He smiled "Okaaaaay" "You wanted to ask something?" "No, I just wanted to say good night.....noona." "Good night pabo."
I stayed up for another hour. I was thinking about Taehyung.
He tucked me in bed when I was drunk, he came by the next day to check on me, he didn't want me to spend the weekend alone so he came to pick me up with Clara and Joonie, he listened to me when I had my nightmare and comforted me, he helped me when my laptop died, he got me a job at BigHit, he sacrificed his own happiness and intentionally hurt me so he would not be in Yoongi's way. He sang to me in the hospital. He calls me whenever he has time just to talk for hours.
I suddenly felt sad. He probably doesn't love me anymore. I wasted my chances.
It's him. It's definitely him. It's always been him. How could I be so blind and stupid?
