I D F C villain!bakugoxhero!kirishima (discontinued)

Six Feet Under

TW: Angst, Cutting, Mental Breakdown

Quick Note: Since this chapter involves some stuff that is serious I want to ask that you proceed with caution if you read this. I love you all and I hope you guys are staying safe out there.

*Previously*

~"Kirishima is breaking, Toshi and I don't think he can stay together any longer," Kaminari tells him. "I know Denks. I know," he responds while running circles into his back. Soon enough the two fell asleep and forgot just for a moment what was going on in the outside world.

Dabi POV:

For the past week, Bakugo hasn't come out of his room and he hasn't eaten like he used to. Nor has he trained as much as he used to. Anytime someone stands by his door to see if he's okay it's silent, no sound, no movement, no small whimpers. Nothing and saying that we were concerned is an understatement.

Sitting on the couch I have Toga, Shigaraki, Twice, and Kurogiri trying to get me to calm down. The reason why you may ask well it's because I know what it's like and what happens when someone locks themselves in their room for a week. It either means that they are depressed, going through something, or are dead and I already lost someone to that I don't need to lose another.

"Let me go check on him. I need to make sure he's okay!" I yell trying to get to the staircase that leads to the rooms. "Why? Why do you need to go check on him?" Toga asked. "Because I...it's complicated alright! The more that he's locked in his room and his trying to go through whatever the hell he's going through is more of a chance that he's suffering. Not physically but mentally and emotionally too," I yell once more.

Finally, when I feel hands release my arms I make a run for it. Knocking on the door I get no response so I just sit there and wait till I do. Sliding down the door I lean my head back and rest it on the door. Hearing small sobs and please for someone I feel my heart squeeze. I know who he's calling for and who he's begging to come back. Seeing the rest walk up the stairs and see me at his door they come and sit next to me.

"He's hurting again, isn't he?" Toga asked. "He always has been. It doesn't help that he doesn't know how to handle it in a healthy way," I whisper to them. "He misses his best friend and wishes he could've done something to protect him. Something to turn back the clock so he could've taken the shot instead of Izuku," I whisper once more.

Bringing my knees up I let my arms rest on them and let my head go back to the door. "I know he's going through a lot of pain right now and I know that he's going to lock himself in that room for as long as he can and blame himself for what happened," I say closing my eyes and taking a deep breath. "What do we do?" Shigarki asked. "We let him get it all out. He's been hiding it ever since he came here," I say.

They all nod and the hallway goes silent. The only thing you can hear are the sounds of Bakugo's pleas and cries for Izuku to come back.

Bakugo POV:

Looking at the picture of me and Izuku as small kids made me want to break again. It may have been one or two months since he left, but it doesn't heal that hole in my heart that was left there when he did. Some people may have healed from the pain and moved onto honoring his memory, but I haven't.

I still have nightmares of that day and I still replay the moment it happened. Feeling the tears sting my eyes again I try to hold it back, but fail as the feeling of warm tears goes down my cheeks. I kept a lot of his stuff the night I left. No one went into my dorm besides Kirishima and he saw all the photos I had of me and him together as kids going into high school. After I learned he had one for all our friendship got stronger.

I never thought it was going to end so I never thought to cherish each and every moment and to make sure that no matter what nothing would tear us apart. But I guess I was wrong. My heart was in pain and all the memories that we had together kept flooding my mind and wouldn't stop.

From the time we went and played at the park when we were both toddlers to the time when we had the big fight in the training grounds and ended up on house arrest for a week. Looking at everything in my room I see all the stuff that Deku cherished and kept and all the pictures of us as kids. I see all the stuff that I have and forgot about. Tears were streaming down my face as I got up and stood in the middle of the room.

My heart was pounding in my chest my hands were shaking and my mind was racing. Everything was heightened and in one final swoop, I snapped. I screamed and threw the things off my desk and onto the floor. The pictures I had on my dresser thrown and the glass shattering. I screamed until I felt my throat go raw. Until I felt like I couldn't anymore.

Throwing the sheets off the bed I collapse onto the ground as I feel the weight fo realization hit me and the pain in my body never-ending. I punch the floor until the glass shards that were on the floor were piercing my knuckles until I felt like I was numb to the pain. Seeing that one sweatshirt he used to always wear I pick it up and hug it. Not letting it go I lay down on the floor and curl up into a ball.

Not caring about the burning I feel on my wrists from the cuts I made out of my own free will. Not caring about the immense pain that was shooting through my whole right hand and not caring about the fact that my whole body hurt and felt weak. I could feel my body reaching for the air around me, but not getting it.

Letting a sob that I was trying to hold in rack my body I take a deep shaky breath in and let out a cry. "Please come back..." I whimper out.

Dabi POV:

Hearing the scream come from him made my heart shatter. It was a raw and gut-wrenching scream that yelled I'm broken and I want you back. Hearing all the stuff that was in his desk, dresser, bed, closet hit the floor and shatter made me feel the amount of emotion that was pent up.

I knew that he was holding it in and I knew that he was going to break somehow I just didn't know how and when. "Should we go in?" Toga asked. I shake my head no and she gives me a confused look. I could tell she was distressed and worried, but I also knew that he had something else he needed to get out.

Then the moment I heard him collapse to the ground and let one last cry rack his body was when I knew it was time to go in and help. "Can you guys stay out here for a sec?" I ask them. They all nod and I open the door and close it when I step in.

being careful not to step on anything and trip I finally make it to his side and lift up his back so he was resting on me. "I miss him..." he whispers in a weak voice. "I know you do. Let's get you cleaned up, okay?" I ask. "Can I stay here just for one more second?" he asks. I nod and bring him into my chest.

Feeling the tears seep into my shirt I rub circles into his back and look up to find the other four slowly but surely making there way in so they could pick some of the stuff up. Toga picks up a green sweatshirt with green ears on the hoodie and a pair of red shoes that were Izukus. 'Hand me the green sweatshirt,' I mouth to her. She hands it to me and I wrap it around him.

Hearing small snores come from the ash-blonde in my arms I take him to one of the other spare rooms and lay the blanket over him. "He'll come back. I promise," I say and walk out of the room.