Psychiatric hospital

Part 1

Emily POV

Fuck. I don't know what's wrong with me. It's like there's people in my head telling me what to do.

I usually try to ignore them but it's hard. Whenever I'm high they die down that's why I'm a drug addict but I also need money for those drugs so I sell them too.

I'm on my way to sell to this kid right now

Where is he

Go back now this isn't you

Don't listen to her go find him get the money so we can get more drugs and sleep all day

No Emily go back

I finally spotted him so I went up to him and I was getting out the bag the fucking cops show up and arrest me. Great.

Skip time

Wow was a worthless little waste of skin you are you got caught and now we have to talk to a therapist

E: shut up

T: excuse me?

E: sorry I wasn't talking to you what did you say

T: who were you talking to

E: no one I'm fine can I leave in not crazy

T: Emily you have schizophrenia and you're not crazy people get it you need help and we are here to help

E: what no I don't I don't need your help

I was getting annoyed by her talking

T: you will be staying in the mental health hospital for the next 2 years

E: what i-I can't

T: I'm sorry honey you could get bailed out but you need help from your schizophrenia and I see you have no family? You live alone

E: yes my dad um my mom kicked him out after he was abusing me for like 10 years and I have no siblings and my mom just recently past away

T: it says here she was missing? She disappeared?

Dumb bitch she's gonna find out you killed her

I didn't kill her you did

T: Emily?

E: what!

T: calm down everything is ok do you know what happened to your mother

E: I don't know she just disappeared

T: are you sure you didn't have anything to do with it

She's gonna find out there gonna kill you. You aren't safe.

It's ok everything is fine just tell her the truth you can get help

E: I don't need help

Shit I said that out loud

T: did you kill her Emily

E: she made me I didn't want to but she was going to kill me anyways

She sighed and wrote something down then some guys came in and took me out the room and drove me to the mental hospital

They threw me in a room without even telling me anything

I just punched the door in anger

?: You know hitting the door won't help you get out

I flinched cuz I didn't know there was anyone else here

There were two beds, two chairs, a window with bars and a desk everything was so nice white and clean. There was also a book case

M: well I'm mattia nice to meet you

I didn't say anything I just sat on the other bed that obviously wasn't his

I can't believe I'm really here I threw my whole life away I'm never getting a job now

No one would hire you anyways just kill yourself there's no point in living right now anyway

No don't kill yourself there's alot to live for now talk to that guy

M: what are you in here for I'm schizophrenic and kill someone so I'm in here for 5 years

I still stayed silent thinking talking to my thoughts

M: so are you going to talk or not

He sounded mad and annoyed so I decided to speak

E: I'm Emily I guess I have schizophrenia and I got caught dealing and for killing someone

He's going to kill you

M: who did you kill

E: who did you kill

M: I asked first

E: and I asked second

I sat up on the bed an shave him my full attention

M: my dad he was out for me after my mom left with my brother

E: I killed my mom. Are you going to kill or hurt me

I was curious so I asked I can't trust him if he's killed someone before

But you kill your own mother and for what?

You made me shut up

My only voice in my head was now the bad one she wouldn't shut up

E: SHUT UP

M: wtf I wasn't even talking bitch

He snapped at me

E: s-sorry I wasn't talking to you

He calmed down and looked like he understood

M: it's ok it happens to me to can't control the voice or voices

E: yeah

He was sitting in his chair reading

E: what are you reading

M: nothing

He showed me a picture book there were no words

M: do you want one

E: uh sure

He threw one on my bed

I was so curious for everything what's going to happen to me

M: you're really pretty

He said out of nowhere

E: me?

M: yeah you

He's lying you're ugly and fat why are you still here again?

E: thank you you're very handsome

I gave him a kinda smile

M: you have a cute smile too I haven't seen you smile till now or show any emotions

E: oh yeah I'm not very emotional

Before he could say anything someone came in

D: here are your pills

He have me and mattia and container of different kinds of pills

Mattia put his in his drawer

M: you don't have to take them they want you to but they give you your space and won't go threw you things

E: oh ok

I opened my drawer and put them in I hate taking pills unless I can get high from snorting them.

I didn't have any clothes just the same boring uniform same for mattia but man does he look hot in it