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[💔]todoroki x reader[🐑]

okay so I'm feeling a bit down maybe because of stress and anxiety, I would like you to read in caution cause there will be subjects about selfharm and suicidal thoughts but no one will die in here

That's all enjoy

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TODOROKI POV

"Should I just kill myself"

I was about to knock on her apartment  when I heard her say that sentence my heart broke, not knowing that the person who can always make someone laugh, smile, and feel better was actually broken and filling her emotions in a bottle "Why, why would she think that way she was perfect, she was smart, talented, clever, funny- god I could make a list of why she was perfect"

I perked through the door crack and saw her a holding something- " A knife!?" I busted the door open seeing her-- her eyes so dull almost no color
She wasn't holding her Wrist up, she-she was slicing on her upper legs, there was so many cuts luckily not too many, she just looked at me no emotion what so ever, running in for a hug

"N-No d-Don't kill yourself"

"Why not?"

Hugging her tightly I stayed calm, pulling away she had the same face the her now was the polar opposite of her in front of our friends, teachers, strangers, hero's she always had a smile she was never angry, yeah she got annoyed but it was always playful
I got touched her hand intertwining mine with hers and put the knife down there was already blood

She was covered in blood her hands legs, and yet no emotion, not even a single drop of tear I put our hands on my face and kissed her bloody hand not caring if I got blood on me, it took me alot of courage to say but

"Don't kill yourself my love, I'll help you fix your problem like you did with mine and the others, you can call anytime even at night and I'll answer I promise, I won't leave you"

"Shoto, please don't make empty promises"

My eyes darted at her concerned "does she not trust me, am I being too touchy, am I just annoying her" thoughts of doubts ran in my head, I felt like someone stabbed me, I always knew she was cold when she was annoyed, it probably ment nothing to her when she said it but it felt like a knife stabbing me, how words could hurt so much when it comes out from the person you love

"I won't leave you, please, if it's my fault tell me, did someone hurt you
-i kissed her forehead- don't worry I'm here and I'll stay I'll keep you company"

"Help me"

tears came down her eyes hugging me there were probably stains of blood on my shirt it looked we commited a murder, I hugged her tightly, hearing her scream and sob made my heart break even more

AFTER THAT

We were laying on her couch cuddling the blood stains gone I was wearing a tanktop and pants while her was a shirt and panties, her legs were covered in bandages, it still hurts me when I see it I covered us with blankets and pillows, lights out but the fairy lights lit up her house/apartment was beautiful like her modern but colorful at the same time aesthetically pleasing

there was even stufftoys beside the tv table and pictures of our friends, and her sketch book scattered near by, while iced chocolate were on the table in front of us with cookies and fries "hehe, what a weird combination" my neighbor totoro was on and she was already asleep

She still had tears on her eyes so I wiped them off, the credits rolled down, food eaten and mugs empty, I slowly got up but i didn't want to wake her up, I carried her and cleaned the mess, after that I turned off the tv fixed the couch and head up to her room, setting her down the bed the wall had big windows to see the night sky, seeing the trees blow through the wind sakura leaves flying
I took a picture of it

Laying down beside her she woke

"Sorry for waking you up, my love"

"Mmhh~ cold, hug"

Her words were slurd but I understood her and covered us in blankets, cuddling her tightly like I was about to loose her, " I love you"
I whispered knowing she probably didn't hear me and drift off to sleep

"I love you too shoto"

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Sorry if the story was sad, I wasn't really feeling good ♡♡♡

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