Natashia~
I'm not ready to face him yet i should have stayed inside i'm so stupid.
Hey miss? Are you ok? The guy asked again i think he doesn't remember me.
I'm fine i replied.
I have to get out of here. Hindi pa ako handa.
I quickly walked away to avoid him ayoko pang makita siya.
I ran as fast as i could para hindi niya ako masundan.
Nang makapunta ako sa eskinita tumigil na ako i guess malayo na din narating ko.
Sinandal ko yung likod ko sa pader at napa tulala. Hindi ko alam pero bigla nalang tumulo luha ko. I can feel my guilt, the regret flowing in my heart. I can't face him.
I covered my face attempting to stop my tears from flowing when someone pull me making me land in their shoulder.
Akala ko ba ok ka lang? Its him.
He let me go and wiped my tears.
Natashia i frozed he remembered me. No hindi pa ako handa.
I pulled my hand and ran again. I ran until i reached the house. I quickly got in my room and into the shower.
I got into the bathtub and cried harder. My heart is pounding like crazy.
Gusto kong sumigaw. Gusto kong ilabas lahat ng hinanakit ko. But i have no one. I have no friends because i'm a freak. I want to die. I want to end my life. But i can't. Hindi ko kayang iwan sila mom. I got up and washed at nag bihis.
I have to be strong for them.
Bumaba ako at nag luto. Nasa trabaho sila mom and dad kaya ako lang ang nandito buong araw. 10 na kaya nag luto na ako. I ate by myself and after kong linisin ang pinagkainan ko i watched Netflix.
I decided to open my accounts. Nung nakila auntie ako hindi ako masyadong nag oopen ng social media especially twitter since puro masasakit na salita lang nakikita ko.
I checked my facebook at hundreds of messages ang bumungad sakin saying i'm a monster, a freak, that i should die etc hindi na naman bago saakin yan.
But someone caught my eyes
*Chris sent a message
Ayokong buksan. Natatakot ako sa kung anong sasabihin niya so i decided not to.
I was about to close my account when i recieved a notification.
*Chris sent a message
I sigh as i openned the message.
I realized that he's been sending me messages for the last 3 years.
I scrolled up until i saw his first message.
-I heard lumipat daw kayo. Was his first message.
He greets me everyday and even on my birthdays he never forgot it.
I checked his chats kanina and it said
-are you ok?
-i forgive you.
I just seened it thinking if i should reply or not.
Natulala nalang ako hanggang sa maka tulog ako.
