Love at first sight?

Sam's P.O.V

Hi I'm Sam. Many know me for my duo channel with my partner in crime Sam and Colby.  I think I'm falling for my best friend, Colby. Let me tell you guys about him. He nice, Emo and always dyes his hair wicked cool colors. but he been my best friend ever since freshman year. We went to summer band camp because our parent made us go. But if my girlfriend found out that I have feelings for another "girl" she is going to kill me. Well at least she thinks I have feels for a girl but really it's my best friend Colby. Yeas i said I have a girlfriend. Let me tell you something about her cause she literally the most SELFISH girl haha just kidding or am I. Yeah I'm just joking around. She is the most beautiful, kinda hearted, Cute and really really nice. Her name is Katrina but we call her Kat for short. We have been dating for almost 3+ years. Yeah I really like her. I have always mess around with Colby about gay/LGBT+. But I'm trying to tell him that.... Nevermind it crazy. But honestly I think I might be Bisexual. I love he is goofy (he cute when he goofy) I never saw him happy. And I'm trying my best to be the best friend he will ever have brides he is like my brother. But I'm scared if I tell him that I l-l-love him he wont love me back.im kinda really nervous. Besides we both embarrass ourselves a lot in front of each other. But that besides the point. I'm pretty sure Colby doesn't like me because he always to busy to hang out with me. He always hanging out with Y/N. I mean comm'on we live like right next door to each other he never pops up and say hi anymore, I just feel like he always on his balcony every night not telling me what happens or why he is depress anymore. I just -- just feel like he's pushing me away. And not want me to be his friend anymore. But I swear I love him so I must tell him now or later but I'm to fucking scared to... I don't want to ruin anything.
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Hi guys it the author of the book. Hope you like it so far. I try my best and I swear they will get better. Just give me time. Love, the author.