Now or never

Lies

The felling when your lied to. What do you fell. Well in my case it wasn't such a bad lie that someone would cry over for more like a lie that could change your life. Yes you heard it right a life changing lie. So you might be wondering why wasn't I happy. Why was I complaining after all anybody when claddly take this appoartonite.

So how did it all start well........

2 days ago me and Chad were texting and he and I really missed each other. So we decided to meet up. So I texted him my address. So after he had arrived to me. It felt like destiny like we were meant to be together. Fault had brought us together. As I opened the door from the back door of my house sparks were flying. Weirdly enough I felt trenches bursting from my heart.

My heart was just exploding more and more. As he looked be in the eye I got nervous but felt safe. It was as if I was looking in to the deep blue ocean. As I was ranting in my head I was very curious to what he was thinking. Was I the crazy one to all the emotions did he fell the things I was feeling about him. After that we laid in bed and just talked he was special, he wasn't like anyone i had ever met before. Just why am I so into him I thought to myself. Gosh I need to stop. I wouldn't make a fool of myself I promised to my self to. Just behave Bella I said to myself of course in my head.

But of course he knew what the look on my nervous face meant. And like no other guy he claimed me down. We talked even more because he wants me to fell compatible around him and so did I. It felt like I knew him for years after we talked but we had just meat 2 days ago. Like how could someone make you fell like that is that even possible.

After we had talked for like what felt like hours which it was more like 25 minutes. He looked his lips to mines. As we made out I thought to myself he is my first love and that kind of feelings you could never get back. What if we break up then what would happen. What if I never fall in love ever again. What if I am that girl who can't ever get over her ex and never moves on from him. Also am I crazy thinking about that right now in the first 2 day of meeting him.