Your name is Eridan Ampora, and to make things short; you think everyone is better off dead. Or at least thats what you say because you too wished death upon yourself.
You were the unlucky fella sliced in half by Kanaya's chainsaw, yep. That was you. Part of you blames yourself for it, but if it weren't for Sollux; who ever so bravely stood up to you, you wouldnt have killed Feferi, and Kanaya who came back to be the cause of your death.
How complicated. And as if there wasn't enough chaos already, here you were stitched up and all, sitting in a room full of people who probably hated you. Scratch that, definitely hated you. Have you seen the looks they shot you? So filled with fear, disgust and distrust. It makes your stomach twist and turn.
You were all seated in a wide circle, with Karkat standing in the middle probably preparing an awfully long speech after trolls and humans alike came to terms with the horror, or the joy that is; they were alive.
After what felt like forever, Karkat shooshes the crowd in an attempt to quieten the room's seemingly endless chatter.
𝙲𝙶: 𝙰𝙻𝚁𝙸𝙶𝙷𝚃. 𝙵𝚄𝙲𝙺𝙸𝙽𝙶 𝚃𝙷𝙰𝙽𝙺 𝚈𝙾𝚄
Ah yes. Karkat wasn't Karkat if he couldn't swear.
𝙲𝙶: 𝙰𝚂 𝚈𝙾𝚄 𝙰𝙻𝙻 𝙺𝙽𝙾𝚆, 𝙱𝚈 𝚂𝙾𝙼𝙴 𝙼𝙸𝚁𝙰𝙲𝙻𝙴 𝚈𝙾𝚄'𝚁𝙴 𝙰𝙻𝙸𝚅𝙴. 𝚈𝙾𝚄 𝙲𝙰𝙽 𝚃𝙷𝙰𝙽𝙺 𝙹𝙰𝙽𝙴 𝙰𝙽𝙳 𝙵𝙴𝙵𝙴𝚁𝙸 𝙵𝙾𝚁 𝚃𝙷𝙰𝚃, 𝙾𝚁 𝙽𝙾𝚃.
He pauses. His face almost a grimace of some sort. Your eyebrows rise in confusion.
𝙲𝙶: 𝙶𝙾𝙳 𝙸 𝙲𝙰𝙽'𝚃 𝙵𝚄𝙲𝙺𝙸𝙽𝙶 𝙳𝙾 𝚃𝙷𝙸𝚂
𝙲𝙶: 𝚆𝙷𝚈 𝙰𝚁𝙴 𝚈𝙾𝚄 𝙶𝚄𝚈𝚂 𝙻𝙾𝙾𝙺𝙸𝙽𝙶 𝙰𝚃 𝙼𝙴 𝙻𝙸𝙺𝙴 𝚃𝙷𝙰𝚃? 𝙳𝙾 𝚈𝙾𝚄 𝙺𝙽𝙾𝚆 𝙷𝙾𝚆 𝙷𝙰𝚁𝙳 𝙸𝚃 𝙸𝚂 𝚃𝙾 𝚂𝚃𝙰𝙽𝙳 𝚄𝙿 𝙷𝙴𝚁𝙴 𝙰𝙽𝙳 𝚃𝙰𝙻𝙺
He turns to Dave, face wrinkled and all. And somehow, Dave shoots him a look of reassurance through his sunglasses.
You want what they have, but by now you've come to terms with the fact that you're too unbearable. And will be forever alone. You deserve to be.
Karkat turns to face everyone once more, taking a deep breath while he's at it, and begins speaking once more.
𝙲𝙶: 𝚃𝙰𝙺𝙴 𝚃𝙷𝙸𝚂 𝙰𝚂 𝙰 𝚂𝙴𝙲𝙾𝙽𝙳 𝙲𝙷𝙰𝙽𝙲𝙴
𝙲𝙶: 𝙰𝙽𝙳 𝙳𝙾𝙽'𝚃 𝚃𝙰𝙺𝙴 𝙿𝙴𝙰𝙲𝙴 𝙵𝙾𝚁 𝙶𝚁𝙰𝙽𝚃𝙴𝙳 𝚃𝙷𝙸𝚂 𝙵𝚄𝙲𝙺𝙸𝙽𝙶 𝚃𝙸𝙼𝙴.
𝙲𝙶: 𝚈𝙾𝚄'𝚅𝙴 𝙽𝙾 𝙵𝚄𝙲𝙺𝙸𝙽𝙶 𝙸𝙳𝙴𝙰 𝙷𝙾𝚆 𝙼𝚄𝙲𝙷 𝚆𝙾𝚁𝙺 𝙸𝚃 𝚃𝙾𝙾𝙺 𝚃𝙾 𝙷𝙰𝚅𝙴 𝙴𝚅𝙴𝚁𝚈𝙾𝙽𝙴 𝙰𝙻𝙸𝚅𝙴 𝙰𝙽𝙳 𝚆𝙴𝙻𝙻, 𝙸 𝙷𝙾𝙿𝙴, 𝙸𝙽 𝚃𝙷𝙸𝚂 𝚁𝙾𝙾𝙼
𝙲𝙶: 𝚂𝙾 𝙸𝙵 𝙰𝙽𝚈 𝙾𝙵 𝚈𝙾𝚄
𝙲𝙶: 𝙰𝙽𝙳 𝙸 𝙼𝙴𝙰𝙽 𝙰𝙽𝚈
𝙲𝙶: 𝙾𝙵 𝚈𝙾𝚄 𝚃𝚁𝚈 𝚃𝙾 𝙺𝙸𝙻𝙻 𝙾𝙽𝙴 𝙰𝙽𝙾𝚃𝙷𝙴𝚁 𝙰𝙶𝙰𝙸𝙽
𝙲𝙶: 𝚂𝙾 𝙷𝙴𝙻𝙿 𝙼𝙴 𝙸𝙻𝙻 𝙼𝙰𝙺𝙴 𝚂𝚄𝚁𝙴 𝚈𝙾𝚄 𝙽𝙴𝚅𝙴𝚁 𝙲𝙾𝙼𝙴 𝙱𝙰𝙲𝙺 𝙰𝙶𝙰𝙸𝙽.
𝙲𝙶: 𝙻𝙴𝚃 𝙼𝙴 𝙼𝙰𝙺𝙴 𝚃𝙷𝙸𝚂 𝙲𝙻𝙴𝙰𝚁
𝙲𝙶: 𝚆𝙴'𝚁𝙴 𝙾𝙽 𝙴𝙰𝚁𝚃𝙷 𝙽𝙾𝚆
𝙲𝙶: 𝙽𝙾𝚃 𝙰𝙻𝚃𝙴𝚁𝙽𝙸𝙰
𝙲𝙶: 𝚆𝙸𝚃𝙷 𝙽𝙾 𝚃𝙷𝚁𝙴𝙰𝚃𝚂 𝚄𝙽𝙻𝙴𝚂𝚂 𝚂𝙾𝙼𝙴 𝙾𝙵 𝚈𝙾𝚄 𝚆𝙸𝚃𝙷 𝙺𝙸𝙻𝙻𝙸𝙽𝙶 𝙿𝚁𝙾𝙱𝙻𝙴𝙼𝚂 𝙳𝙴𝙲𝙸𝙳𝙴 𝚃𝙾 𝙶𝙾 𝙱𝙰𝚃𝚂𝙷𝙸𝚃 𝙲𝚁𝙰𝚉𝚈 𝙰𝙶𝙰𝙸𝙽
𝙲𝙶: 𝙿𝙻𝙴𝙰𝚂𝙴
𝙲𝙶: 𝙿𝙻𝙴𝙰𝚂𝙴 𝙹𝚄𝚂𝚃 𝙻𝙴𝙰𝚁𝙽 𝚃𝙾 𝙻𝙸𝚅𝙴 𝙸𝙽 𝙿𝙴𝙰𝙲𝙴
𝙲𝙶: 𝚃𝙷𝙴𝚁𝙴 𝙸𝚂 𝙽𝙾𝚃𝙷𝙸𝙽𝙶 𝚃𝙾 𝙵𝙸𝙶𝙷𝚃, 𝙰𝙽𝙳 𝙽𝙾𝚃𝙷𝙸𝙽𝙶 𝚃𝙾 𝙵𝙸𝙶𝙷𝚃 𝙵𝙾𝚁 𝙰𝙽𝚈𝙼𝙾𝚁𝙴.
𝙲𝙶: 𝙸𝚃𝚂 𝚃𝙷𝙰𝚃 𝚂𝙸𝙼𝙿𝙻𝙴.
Everyone was silent, some wore expressions of uncertainty, others were blank. Probably lost in thought over this newfound abundance of freedom. Oh gog. Then there was Feferi, who looked like she was about to explode into a bunch of rainbows and soft, cuddly scalemates.
Gog, make it stop. You hated her smile. You hated how she was always happier than you, without you.
𝙲𝙶: 𝙺𝙰𝙽𝙰𝚈𝙰 𝙰𝙽𝙳 𝚁𝙾𝚂𝙴 𝙷𝙰𝚅𝙴 𝙰𝙻𝚁𝙴𝙰𝙳𝚈 𝚂𝙴𝚃𝚃𝙻𝙴𝙳 𝙸𝚂𝚂𝚄𝙴𝚂 𝙲𝙾𝙽𝙲𝙴𝚁𝙽𝙸𝙽𝙶 𝙾𝚄𝚁 𝙻𝙸𝚅𝙸𝙽𝙶 𝚂𝙿𝙰𝙲𝙴.
𝙲𝙶: 𝚆𝙴'𝙻𝙻 𝙱𝙴 𝙻𝙸𝚅𝙸𝙽𝙶 𝙸𝙽 𝚃𝙷𝙸𝚂 𝚅𝙴𝚁𝚈 𝙱𝚄𝙸𝙻𝙳𝙸𝙽𝙶 𝚆𝙴 𝙰𝚁𝙴 𝙸𝙽
𝙲𝙶: 𝚄𝙼
𝚃𝙶: 𝚊𝚗 𝚊𝚙𝚊𝚛𝚝𝚖𝚎𝚗𝚝
𝙲𝙶: 𝚃𝙷𝙰𝙽𝙺𝚂 𝙳𝙰𝚅𝙴.
𝙲𝙶: 𝚈𝙴𝚂, 𝙰𝙽 𝙰𝙿𝙰𝚁𝚃𝙼𝙴𝙽𝚃.
𝙲𝙶: 𝚈𝙾𝚄'𝙻𝙻 𝙴𝙰𝙲𝙷 𝙷𝙰𝚅𝙴 𝚈𝙾𝚄𝚁 𝙾𝚆𝙽 𝚁𝙾𝙾𝙼𝚂
𝙲𝙶: 𝚄𝙽𝙻𝙴𝚂𝚂 𝚈𝙾𝚄 𝙰𝙽𝙳 𝚂𝙾𝙼𝙴𝙾𝙽𝙴 𝙰𝚁𝙴 𝚂𝙾𝙼𝙴 𝙺𝙸𝙽𝙳 𝙾𝙵 𝙵𝚄𝙲𝙺𝙸𝙽𝙶 𝙲𝚄𝙳𝙳𝙻𝙴𝙱𝙴𝙰𝚂𝚃𝚂 𝙾𝙵 𝙲𝙾𝚄𝚁𝚂𝙴
𝙲𝙶: 𝚃𝙷𝙴𝙽 𝙻𝙸𝚅𝙴 𝚃𝙾𝙶𝙴𝚃𝙷𝙴𝚁
𝙲𝙶: 𝚆𝙷𝚈 𝚃𝙷𝙴 𝙵𝚄𝙲𝙺 𝙳𝙾 𝙸 𝙲𝙰𝚁𝙴 𝙰𝙽𝚈𝚆𝙰𝚈
For some reason, Kanaya shot Karkat a look, as if it were to prompt him to say something.
𝙲𝙶: 𝙾𝙷 𝚄𝙷.
𝙲𝙶: 𝙺𝙰𝙽𝙰𝚈𝙰 𝚃𝙾𝙾𝙺 𝙸𝚃 𝚄𝙿𝙾𝙽 𝙷𝙴𝚁𝚂𝙴𝙻𝙵 𝚃𝙾 𝙳𝙴𝚂𝙸𝙶𝙽 𝚃𝙷𝙴 𝚁𝙾𝙾𝙼𝚂 𝙴𝙰𝙲𝙷.
𝙲𝙶: 𝙰𝚂 𝙻𝙸𝙺𝙴
𝙲𝙶: 𝚂𝙾𝙼𝙴 𝚂𝙾𝚁𝚃 𝙾𝙵 𝙰𝙿𝙾𝙻𝙾𝙶𝚈 𝚃𝙾𝚆𝙰𝚁𝙳𝚂 *𝚂𝙾𝙼𝙴* 𝙾𝙵 𝚈𝙾𝚄 𝙸 𝙶𝚄𝙴𝚂𝚂?
Kanaya nodded.
𝙲𝙶: 𝚃𝙷𝙸𝚂 𝙸𝚂 𝙰𝙽 𝙴𝚇𝙰𝙼𝙿𝙻𝙴 𝙾𝙵 𝙷𝙾𝚆 𝙸 𝚆𝙰𝙽𝚃 𝚈𝙾𝚄 𝙰𝙻𝙻 𝚃𝙾 𝙱𝙴𝙷𝙰𝚅𝙴.
𝙲𝙶: 𝙽𝙾 𝙼𝙾𝚁𝙴 𝙶𝚁𝚄𝙳𝙶𝙴𝚂.
𝙲𝙶: 𝙴𝚅𝙴𝚁𝚈𝚃𝙷𝙸𝙽𝙶 𝙸𝚂 𝙸𝙽 𝚃𝙷𝙴 𝙿𝙰𝚂𝚃.
How was it so easy for her to forgive? This angered you. It almost felt fake. Did you even know what kindness felt like? You don't think you're going to get used to it anytime soon. Your silly little brain decides to overthink every scenario where everyone shuns you out.
And by the time you snap out of it, everyone is packing up to move into their rooms. Stacking up the chairs in this particular recreational room.
You get up and do the same.
Everyone walks out with a friend or two to chatter with.
You walk out alone, lightheaded.
YOU ARE READING
A WAY TO PLAY GOD
Fanfictionbasically; same characters, my world quite frankly; i have no idea what the everlivin fuck im doin! but because i am bored, i have decided to write a fic. (cause roleplaying is way too hard and awkward for me)
