Worlds collide

Hi

I'm like really sorry but I started this a really long time ago and I don't really know if I'll pick it up again I feel kind of betrayed by Shannon so I've stoped reading those books I finished the pj series and I love uncle rick he is like my Zuse except for the fact that zuse sucks and uncle rick is awesome so I know this whole Clovis thing is scary but on the bright side (for me and my friends) where we live the stuff is being lifted and we are going to a place at OU called the baked bear and it is really good I kid of just gave away what state i live in but it's like two am and life sucks for me right now there is light a person in my contacts now called the anti (my name y'all I'm stupid but I'm not an idiot I need my life) depression crew and she has been lifting me up lately because even tho collage is pretty far away for me I'm freaking out about that and that is crazy I know but I'm like really nervous a lot sometimes and pms sucks and I was like up at three am no prob freaking out about colage and my future husband and kids and saying that he would prob leave me and my kids and I would end up living with my parents and that they would probably kick me out because I probably wouldn't have a job and I was freaking I just got intrupted by my moms dog that I normally hate but hey what the heck why not. So ya I wAs panicking for no reason and she was like you idiot and I listens to her and felt better. So today she tells me that there was a nurse in her doctors office and the nurse (mind you my friend was just HOLDING her phone) and the nurse says 'do you have to be glued to that phone' and she texted me bout it and I thought if I could drive that lady would be dead no one talks like that to someone that has helped me through my sadness. So I ranted to her about how there was no way she deserved that and how she was an angle and I was just really mad. Last night in Snapchat cause I love that gurl I did (another) round of I call them best friend list pick ups and so I just like make a speech about how much good that person has done for me and I almost cried when I did hers because it meant so much to me.
Also idk bout y'all but I miss my people. There was 150 kids in my grade and I would see almost all of them everyday. I'm an only child now keep this in mind and so I went from seeing (if all the other grades in my school have the same amount of kids in them) 450 kids a day to seeing my mom dad and not that oftenly the neighbors or my Mimi. Tbh I've lost hope in my brain well you didn't have to read this but if you did thank you and stay safe and happy 😃! Also get webtoon and read my giant nerd boyfriend I promise it will make your day better 😁😁 ~me out AHH THE MOTH IS BACK I REPEAT THE MOTH IS BACK THIS IS NOT A DRILL!!!!