Kenzie Ziegler. Johnny Orlando. Two names that just sings meant to be. But sometimes the going gets tough and it's hard to see who's the one to stay and who's the one to leave and if love really is the answer to everything.
They're a fairytale waiti...
In which, half of it isn't an alternate universe :(
They were exes on good terms
Johnny Orlando,17 Mackenzie Ziegler,15
Mackenzie Ziegler
I try to swallow the painful lump in my throat as I spoke. "So yeah, it's really hard to see those comments because at the moment we're not together, and I had to lie because I don't want anybody to send hate to Isaak because I really do love him with all my heart but I don't know if we're ever going to be okay, I hope we will though."
I take a deep breath, giving my full effort to not just breakdown right then and there. "Yeah, I'm going to get of now. Just nobody send hate to anybody. Love you guys."
Just as my shaky finger pressed the end live button, I collapsed on my bed. I started bawling my eyes out, my heart aches so bad it feels like I am suffocating in my own breath. My breathing was unstable as I cried and cried and cried, letting all my emotions flow out through my body. I want so bad to scream my heart out and even if I could have, I didn't. I ran my fingers through my dirty blonde hair, messing it up but who cares? The one person I want to look good for isn't here anymore. He left. I held my hands in fists and dug my finger nails into my palms, it hurt so terribly but at the moment I felt as if it was what I deserved.
I hate this feeling, I hate it so much, I hate heartbreak, I hate being here, I hate life, I hate that my mom gave birth to me, I hate my existence.
I was so clouded in my own thoughts I didn't realize Maddie coming in and just wrapping me in a big warm hug that I needed so desperately. I scrambled in her arms and rested my head on her chest listening to her calm heartbeat.
Soon, my tears start to dry, I regained my breathing and my heart beat was functioning properly.
Maddie kisses my forehead. She was such a great comfort.
"Thanks." I say with gratitude, voice still raspy from crying.
Maddie doesn't reply, we stayed silent the whole time, it was a comforting silent, it was exactly what I needed. Maddie hands me my phone. I accepted it without question, so numb to everything now.
There were posts from fanpages, and I bit my lip, afraid of what people had to say, but still, I proceeded to read when Maddie gave me a nod of encouragement.
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