Broken

First kiss with Grayson

We spent all day laying in Grayson's bed and talking we talked about everything. I told him all about luke and he told me about all his ex girlfriend who cheated on him

The way he talked about her sounded like he loved her alot,and he was heartbroken.i felt really bad for him.

We were in the middle of talking and was about ordering a pizza when someone walked by the door,and he stopped in their track when they saw me.

Ella? Matt asked his face turning red with anger

I sat up and got off Grayson bed and i still had his clothes on from the other night.well this really look bad.

What the hell?you have a boyfriend and you go and do this with my girlfriends brother??and why do you have a black eye?what's going on??

I just stared at him. I don't know what to do.

We can explain"Grayson said but Matt just shook his head and walked off.

I followed him downstairs but he slammed the door right at my face

I just stood there.Grayson came up behind me and hugged me but i pushed him away.He looked a little hurt but i don't really care at the moment.

Gryason he hates me,He's the only person i have left.what am i supposed to do? I said starting to cry.

Hey don't cry it will be okay we just have to explained to him what happend and he will understand.Trust me he said hugging me again

This time i didn't push away.i just cried into his chest.its all getting to much.The stress of my parents and luke. This just pushed me over the edge

We stood there for what felt like forever when i finally break the hug. I wiped the tears from my face and backed away.

I'm sorry about that.i said

It's okay don't worry"he said smiling at me.

I looked down but he titled my chin back up.That semmed to be happening alot lately.

We just started into each other's eyes. I really loved his eyes. I always had.

He took a deeo breathe and cupped ny face with both his hands and started leaning in.

Okay i will admit,i had a little crush on Grayson,but i never thought this would happend.

When our lips crashed togther it felt like fireworks that sounds cliche but it really did.

As our lips moved in sync with each other i smiled then i realized i really shouldn't be doing this,but honestly i don't care because it felt so right

Soon he pulled away.

H
I've been wanting to do that for so long,but i couldn't,and now i did i hate myself for waiting so long he said smiling.

I didn't say anything. I did enjoy it but i was scared to get involved with another guy. Luke was this sweet when we started dating too.and that didn't went so well.

"Uh..sorry i actually shouldn't have done that"he said dropping his hands to his side and moving away from me.

I just looked down. I don't know what to say

"I'm just...scared"i said trying to think of how to put my feeling in words.He nodded.

I understand"its okay

I nodded,relived I'm glad he understood

Well i should probably go and explain to Matt what happened"i said looking at the door.

He pulled me into a hug

"Thanks you for everything" i said with my face smushed against his chest,he just nodded and hugged me tighter.

I never wanted to let go.