Time:
It's hard,
Nothing feels right,
Time is passing over and over,
And yet,
I feel nothing.
Time has become irrelevant,
I spend countless hours on my phone,
It's the same thing,
Over and over.
Alone:
I just want to be alone,
My family won't leave me alone.
Why?
Why can't I stay in my room?
Why is it suddenly a problem if I stay up until 3 am?
Why is it that you suddenly care, that I'm important now?
I'm not bothering you,
Heck,
I even cook for you,
My grades are better than ever.
Why can't you just leave me alone?
Family:
I am about to go insane.
My family will not,
And will not,
Stop annoying me.
I don't remember them ever being like this,
Can y'all stop,
And think before you do something.
Stop randomly barging into my room if I am in the middle of a call with someone.
Let me run and hide.
I need space.
Can you just accept that?
Please.
Let that be the one thing I get from you.
Trust:
Trust is really screwed up,
And I'm not saying that because I'm that one person who get their heart broken every other week.
What are we supposed to think?
You just randomly meet someone,
And think to yourself,
Hmmm let me tell them every detail that's going on in my life.
No!
That's not how things work.
Most of the time they end badly.
People break your trust,
Like it's a heart of a young teenage girl.
And then you go right back to trusting them.
It's screwed up,
You're stuck in an endless loop.
Passing:
It's mainly time.
Did anyone else just forget completely about April?
What even happened?
The only thing I remember is eating Cheetos on my couch at 2 in the morning.
School is almost done,
And nothing significant happened,
At all.
I was supposed to have dances,
And get together's,
And parties,
And fun.
But no,
I'm stuck inside with my family,
Who annoys me more than half the time,
And the other half I ignore them.
What makes it worse is that tomorrow is Mother's Day,
Now I'm actually going to have to spend time with them,
I don't think I have the social capabilities for that anymore.
