stories of leaves

fight the ambivalence [kobayashi yui]

"let's try to talk more!"
"no, it's really troublesome, don't do that!"
"you are not even that shy, be confident!"
"no no no, this is your concept, what made you famous, don't break that streak!"

she's trapped, in her own dream, looking at the two characteristics yelling at her.
"what could i do if you guys keep acting like this???"
"JUST FOLLOW ME!!!"
she sighs, how in sync they are.
"why do you guys have to argue about that so much? it's annoying me!"
"this is for your future!!!"

suddenly, everything's darkening, she awakes, sweats a lot. they keep coming like that to her after being called for acting like a silent, kind girl. she always thinks about what to say before the shooting, especially for keyakitte, kakenai? sometimes, she wants to talk freely about many things, but there will be a big wall block her thinking stream, it stops that desire of her, she just automatically stops opening her mouth. yui feels tired, she hates everything...

"ambivalent" 's shooting day...

"hey, move a little faster, we will be late for screen time!" - the director shouts to the actors on the floor
"okay, let's try our best today, guys!" - yuuka encourages other members
"but where is yuipon?"
"hmmm, yeah,... where is she?... you should find her, risa"
"ok, just tell the director to wait for me"
"i'll do that!" - fuyuka said

somewhere in the corner of the building...

the beats of "ambivalent" replays hundred of times inside her head, she keeps her eyes closed. therefore, she dances with it in her own world.

"YUIPON! what are you doing here???"

"AAH! you make me freakin' out!"
"we are searching for you tho" - risa grins
"okay okay, i'm coming~"
then, risa sees her phone screen
"hmmm, ya play this a lot, huh"
"it's not your business, tho"
" is it something you want to share?"

kobayashi's frozen, that watanabe is really in her shoe (?)

"haha, don't act like that, i definitely don't know what you're thinking, but i think many people would feel the same as yourself, they don't even know what they want."
"...have you ever fought with yourself?"
"do you mean that in your dream or something?"
"how do you know that? did ya sleep under my bed??"
"nonono, it's just sudden thought"
"...yeah, the song sympathizes my feelings all the time"

risa doesn't say, she hugs yui, tightly...
"anybody could suffer this problem, but i'm encouraging you, by this hug, to help you with the battle, is it alright?"

yui's touched, they stay at the same position for a while. she can feel the fire in her mind, with ricchan's words, she knows she can do it herself, and break the shell...

eventually, the frequency of her sudden comments in the show increases miraculously, she feels more comfortable, her jokes fly easily from her mind, she also has a special episode because she complaints about the problem of the staffs. she's truly happy with her decisions, things that grow a tree, a keyaki tree called "steadiness" to destroy the fear she created.

aeon card's cm shooting day...

watanabe, kobayashi, and morita walk together on the bridge for a scene, the director said they could talk about anything.

"hey, risa, thank you so much"
"for what, did i do anything to you?"
"thanks for encouraging me that day, i finally won the fight!"
"wow, that sounds cool, what is it about?" - runrun being curious
"haha, just a short story about how she turns into a gangster tho"
"hey, who is that gangster, it's just my personality, ok!!??"

they laugh joyfully, finish the scene peacefully...

and you, do you want to make a proper decision all the time?

personal notes: in my opinion, yui-chan has a great potential to be the center for next single, she is a definite talent, and she could also learn fast. i believe in her future, and also want to cheer her up in anyway.
and if you want to request or comment about anything with my writing skill, just do it freely, because this is my first time tho. :))))
p/s: i would write about couples too!!!