Sometimes I feel like I am artificial intelligence.
At 02.00 AM I go to places I usually go to. Haunted imageries like memories rush to my mind. Familiar things.
I said, "Have you find your canteen?". I noticed that he worried a bit and he said "no its not even important"
I am thinking now if he would say "how do you remember?" I would say "how do you remember?".
This had noted this somewhere back in my mind.
And if she would say "she has something" mentioning me, I would think;
Does this mean she thinks people don't have something by default. If this conservation would have never happened then she would think I don't have anything.
Then isn't this means she is prejudiced.
With this thought I gave her labels. Fragmentary names split to pieces, could split forever. I attached these labels to her free body in my mind. If I attached enough of them I would never be able to see her again but I decided to stop at an appropriate point.
Between all this rushed thoughts and imaginaries I stopped.
This is rare. I love these moments. I realize their value afterward.
I stopped and looked at her body with labels. It reminds me of an object with attributes.
Sometimes I feel like I am artificial intelligence.