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The 1975

If you are reading this then that means you have already read Vegas. If you have already read Vegas then that means you understand my love for The 1975. Vegas is based off of the start of the Sex music video. The prologue is practically taken straight from the video.

Anyways, tonight / December 15 / I saw The 1975 in concert for the very first time. And this was the only place I could possibly think to share this with.

The show was phenomenal. The absolute best thing that has ever happened to me in my life thus far. And I hadn't realized just how much I needed that to happen.

I'll go into more detail on that in a moment.

The set list was amazing. The venue was perfect. Matty Healy is my favorite human being in this entire world. He was drinking straight from a bottle and smoking cigarettes. He was drunk halfway through the set and staggering about the stage. But he was so him. And he is so beautiful.

Just an amazing amazing human.

They played a lot of their popular songs, all of my favorites. I screamed the lyrics to Girls and to Chocolate and I danced like no one was watching. Because it didn't matter what anyone else had to say.

I felt alive.

But the moment that stuck out to me most of all was when they performed Me.

Me is my all time favorite song by them ever. It speaks to me on such a personal level, its unbelievable. And Matty asked everyone to put down their phones whilst they played it and everyone did. And we were all simply there. Just watching and listening.

Simply living.

Simply existing.

And I suddenly found myself crying. Just a few tears because I had never felt such a way before. It was like Matty understood exactly how I was feeling, how I have felt.

Alone. Depressed. Scared. Hated. Disgusting. Anxious.

Wanting nothing more than to die.

And in that moment, I was alive. And I am so so thankful that I am alive.

This show was amazing. I needed the escape. I needed these feelings.

Because I feel infinite.

And after the show, I decided to explore the city that I live in. Because its beautiful. And so I sat, illegally, under all of these lights and buildings with a friend of mine. And we had a heart to heart. And we shared how we were feeling.

And I wanted to scream at the top of my lungs because I felt so fucking good. So amazing. So alive.

Life had meaning.

And this show showed that to me.

And I am so very thankful.

An update for this book will be posted soon, but I wanted to share this with all of you.

I love you all so so so much. I cannot explain it. You are all amazing and I cannot thank you enough for all of your support.

I love you,

For always, forever.

° Nevada °