Regrets; Jenrene au

one

   The calendar sat precariously in my hands. I felt my hands smooth over the wrinkled pages, fingering the torn edges of the yellowed, coffee-stained pages. With a frown on my face, I sighed. Carefully, I ripped out the limp page of the calendar, recklessly throwing it into the garbage with my back turned. I was officially done with the whole of last year. Same school, same class, different mindset. Somewhere deep inside me, I knew it was going to be one hell of a year.
   What's a year without the place we all spend the most time in? The corridors were the same. The mundane concrete grey floor, the glass panes that scintillated in the feeble rays of sunlight that rarely reached the classrooms, the railings that revealed the odd view that I had grown to love... nothing changed. It was all the same.
   My phone in hand, I looked at the map sent to us by the school, in a terrible attempt to find my classroom. God, was I bad at directions.
   The loud chatter of my classmates reverberated in the air, encapsulating the chatty, nosy essence of my class perfectly. I certainly didn't miss hearing this everyday, yet, some part of me was glad to hear the nonsense spewing out of their mouths.
   "Ah, hello." The voice was gentle, soft and oddly soothing. She can't be one of my classmates. I looked up from the device I held so dearly to greet the mystery that stood before me. "Hello," I said to the girl. I'd never seen her before. Was she new? "Are you new?" I asked, a small smile forming on my face in hopes of appearing friendly. She nodded, pursing her lips, her eyes darting from the chair next to me back to me, and again. She must be looking for a seat. "Oh, please," I gestured towards the empty seat beside me, a tiny chuckle escaping my lips.
   I went back to my device, trying to escape from the awkwardness that was eating me inside. Oh lord, I couldn't stand the silence.
   "So... I'm Jennie. You?" I turned to the girl. Her hair was a beautiful pitch black, her eyes a dark brown that occasionally turned hazel in the meek rays of sunlight. "I'm Joohyun." She smiled. Not the biggest talker, I see. I nodded and raised my eyebrows slightly, again, in an attempt to seem friendly. I then turned away, burying my head in my phone.