Gordon

Being Ill

She had cancer.
Brain cancer to be exact. She told me all the details like she said, "i will forget things, my personalityT could change, i will loose my hair, i will be in hospital for quite a while"
My heart torn in two but at that moment it felt like i was awake. I could see everyone, i could walk but i could still see myself lying down on the hospital bed. Kind of like I was a ghost but no for i was not dead my monitor said i was doing well. I could finally see my love again . I tried to hug her i wanted her so bad, i kept saying to myself wake up, wake up you idiot, your going to loose her, WAKE UP,PLEASE,PLEASE,HELP,I AM TRAPPED IN MY OWN HELL, PLEASE, ABBIE NEEDS ME AND I NEED HER. Then i